Norse Posted October 15, 2011 Posted October 15, 2011 First off on October the second early in the morning while coming back from her house I wrecked my car, flipped it, and it only had liability insurance because it was a rebuilt. So I lost it, and all the money she and I invested into it. We dated for about 10 months. I broke my neck in three places and had other small injuries, she stayed with me both days in the hospital helping me in many ways and doing things I couldn't do for myself. It was a very stressful time. Once I got out we hadn't seen each other for a few days and I was starting to miss her and for some reason I called her up complaining, saying a lot of things I should have never said. I never cursed her a once, never have or would. But I said things in a way to make her feel guilty about not spending enough time with me when she wanted to do other things. We've had this same argument many times. We even didn't talk for about 3-4 days once over it and I eventually pleaded her into coming back. While on the phone she started to cry and I guess I did too once she told me she didn't think she could do it any more. I called texted like 30 times after my phone died and she never answered. Her sister was there at the time backing her up I'm sure. I drove to her house that night and her dad said she didn't want to see me and for me to try again tomorrow and I told him to tell her I wanted to be her friend. I still wanted her in my life. So the next day comes and she texts me saying "my dad said you still wanted to be friends", so we discussed many things and she basically told me time and time again, "you can't change, you never will, it's part of your personality, and nothing you can do or say will change my mind, and if you don't stop I don't think we can even be friends, and that it was just too much stress" So I stopped and have been attempting to be a friend. She's lost a lot of time and she's studying night and day for a certification. A few days later I went to her house so we could study together, we discussed some of the relationship shared a few tears and we stayed as friends... So after like 6 more days she invited me over again, and I noticed she removed the promise ring i got her and put it on the ring finger of the other hand, removed our picture from her phone background and computer, as well as removed our facebook relationship status and put just a picture of her as default. She pointed out that she still had pictures of us kissing on her walls at her house, and she still has those kind of pictures in her albums on facebook. A few times she even slipped a pet name. She also asked how many girls had been talking to me on facebook. And when I told her I wasn't wearing my brace tonight when I go out because it wasn't attractive she asked who I was trying to attract. But last night I told her everything straight from my heart... that I loved her and only her... that I needed the breakup to help me see how i was hurting her, and that If I knew it would have came to this I would have stopped because I felt if I kept pushing at her to spend more time with me she would, and she replied that when i seen it was hurting her before I should have quit then. So I told her I would have but I felt it would work, and it didn't obviously. And I told her I needed the breakup but not forever. And that I understand she's not a caged animal and she has the right to go out and do things. And that I wanted to have a life with her, and start treating her like I should have before. And I asked her to think about what I was saying, and she said she wouldn't make any promises and she didn't know if she would. I told her life has lost its color and things that seemed important no longer do. I've even stopped eating but like maybe once a day. Tomorrow I'm going to church with her and listen to her read aloud, it's something she wanted me to do before when we were together and I just never did. So now I'm just giving her space and trying to show her I can live my life without her(when really I can't). Is there anything I can do here to get a second chance?
Coupedriver Posted October 31, 2011 Posted October 31, 2011 (edited) ............................. Edited October 31, 2011 by Coupedriver None
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