lovesickpuppy Posted October 10, 2011 Posted October 10, 2011 A week ago today I found out that 2 weeks after ending me by text with no solid reason, that he had gone off and had sex with a MINOR. A week ago today I told him I hated him, he was the worst thing to ever happen to me, I never wanted anything to do with him ever again and I don't think I ever loved him... Well, he seems to be having the time of his life, it hurts because for the last 2 days I've been on a high, I think now I'm on a comedown after finding him on a friends facebook and seeing how happy he is and smiley in his going out pictures... This is the longest we've ever gone not speaking, usually after 5 days NC he's in touch, but this time he even had the cheek to block me on facebook! I'm guessing that's a power thing? Even though I had the upper hand with telling him not to talk to me, he wants to feel like he still has the upper hand by making sure I can't contact him on facebook... I wonder if ever, will he get in touch? I thought I knew him too well and he'd be in touch by now..I guess this time is different, he's got a slutty minor to fill the hole I left. Why must I suffer when he treated me in the worst possible way? My only hope is that he'll suffer in the long run where he realises I'm truly gone :/ AHHHH what a terrible day today is, didn't expect to feel like crap on the 7th day! On the plus side, he's put on WEIGHT!! I guess he must be suffering someway, otherwise he'd still be his usual size! Thoughts?
ConfusedT Posted October 11, 2011 Posted October 11, 2011 keep at it. i did 2 months and then relapsed, but after today and actually seeing people breakin it down to me like i needed it!! i am ready to start again, so here i am on day 2 NC! welcome to the club and let's get better!!!
Author lovesickpuppy Posted October 11, 2011 Author Posted October 11, 2011 Thank you very much for both of your replies, it's getting easier but harder at the same time, I'm beginning to let go of those feelings I had of sadness, but in return I am starting to accept that I will never be with him again, even if he did come back. Wow, NC is crazy, day 8 and counting.....
ConfusedT Posted October 11, 2011 Posted October 11, 2011 i went NC for days, then stopped, breadcrumbs, lc, fwb, no contact for months, then fwb AGAIN and now i am starting NC again. this is an emotional freakin rollercoaster and yes, it will be terrible and yes, it will hurt and yes, you will be sad, but all i know is at the end of the day, i hope that disinvolving myself *& u as well* from an unhealthy situation will allow ourselves to be happy again, bc thats all that really matters.
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