eleanorhurting Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 Today I am angry again. I am angry at how my life has played out in the last year. I am angry at the pathetic person I have become I am angry at how I have let people use me I am angry at how I am not going to be able to be with anyone for a long time because a)apparetly no one wants me b) there is no way i can open up to anyone again. I am angry that I am 24 and still living in a high school like situation where I have to see these people on a regular basis, where my reputation is now ruined and where I just got dumped by the equivalent of zach morris on saved by the bell. I hate still being in high school and what i hate more is that i care what these people think of me. I really, truly believe I'm never going to find anyone again. I hate that all of this happened because of one mistake almost 1 year ago that changed my life.
Zabs Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 Do something constructive with the anger then Elenor....channel it! Stop thinking that you have no control over this and your behaviour will follow suit:mad: I don't know if that anger is transference but I feel resonance with your story. Who gives a flying f*** what people think of you....are these people important to you? A resounding NO Do they contribute anything to your life NO! Will they be there in a year or two time? NO! ********them ********. Start being yourself and **** every ******* else! We spend too much time trying to be something we ain't, trying to fit in, trying to please....PLEASE YOURSELF and start from there! ..............................................and calmness is restored... Zabs xx
Author eleanorhurting Posted October 9, 2011 Author Posted October 9, 2011 i know i know...i want to think things will be better someday
BLuvv Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 It's understandable you get angry and upset at the circumstances, but you're focused on all the negatives. I know I do that too. It's easy to lose sight of the good things in life. You're in medical school and have your whole future ahead of you. And 24 is still so young, you have plenty of time to meet someone else. I get stuck feeling that way and I'm in my late twenties. There is still time to find someone and still guys out there. Trust me I know I get discouraged as hell, but you gotta remember it's up to you to keep moving forward. And everyone slips up and makes mistakes but you are making another mistake if you dwell on the old mistake and let it get you down.
PelicanPete Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 i know i know...i want to think things will be better someday That someday is any day you want it to be.
Author eleanorhurting Posted October 9, 2011 Author Posted October 9, 2011 i keep telling myself this is the time. I need to make it happen
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