Zabs Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 I am sat here a little frustrated at the moment as I have just found out EXACTLY how much I mean to P. Basically, he wants us to be together and always has. Children etc the works... I know I was distant in the past but I am sure I made up for it and used to tell him I love him lots. I would like to know then, if the whole world can know how much he loves me, misses me etc...why won't he tell me? What would or has stopped you from telling how you feel? Comments please! Zabs xx:confused:
ScienceGal Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 A lot of things can stop him. Usually pride, stubborness, ego, etc. Despite what you hear, there also is the possibility that he really does not love you (sorry). When is the last time you spoke (is the break up fresh?) If a long time has passed, as I gather from your 'distant past' comment, then I will ask what is stopping you from picking up the phone. Were you the dumper or dumpee? I think you need to determine why the breakup happened and whether or not those are things that can be repaired or not. Think of all the bad things... are they likely to resurface? Is that really the relationship you want? Good luck!
TheDovic Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 Is there a potential fear of rejection Zabs? i.e. does he know you're interested?
Author Zabs Posted October 9, 2011 Author Posted October 9, 2011 From what I can gather guys... in the beginning it was because I was distant. Not wanting to give too much of myself..I was scared...we both were...to me it felt like he was consuming in every part of my life..but in hindsight he just wanted to be close to me. He went prison...things were ok for a bit..but I don't know if the trust issues got to him. I remember a very poignant thing in one of his letters...saying about a new friend I had made "Just hope she doesn't lead you astray" :confused:When I asked him about it he said he was joking...but there were many times....when he got out he used to say to me that he felt I was just using him for sex...that's all it is....he said it a number of times. My reply was "I tried loving you...you didn't like it..I tried f**king you...you don't like it...what do you want from me?" :eek:This was after he had hid my phone on purpose so I would meet his family....and ll the relationshippy type of things.. I guess insecurities grew from there...then one dayafter a time apart..he called me crazy. (Hence the diagnosis for us both) I went mad then. In the time we'd been apart I was talking to a guy..and friend were like.."come on...you gotta forget about P..go on the date" fast forward... I did. It weren't great however he was ok. This guy was moving fast telling me he knew what style of clothes I liked he could get me this and that...(don't like that kind of stuff) he had money...(all of which don't mean anything to me even if he was a stockbroker) long story short. I missed hugs and kisses which if I am honest is all I miss (apart from with P) So I indulged a little. The guy got carried away and I knew if I tried stopping him there was a chance I could get hurt...so I let him. If anything, it proved a point that unless I am in love, sex don't run. I told him I don't want to see him again despite his constant text and calls..and even his turning up at my house x4!:mad::mad::mad: I didn't know who this guy was until this year...and it appears that A has been a childhood friend of my P for a long time. :sick:I was devastated. :sick::sick:I didn't kow who he was...but A KNEW who I was because I had told him P's full name and checked to see if they knew each other. He was adamant he didn't..but he had lied for a chance with me. In August last year P asked me round after a 4 month break. He was going on about who had I slept with while we been apart. :eek:I told him no one (because we weren't even together and I knew he would take it bad if he knew I had slept with someone) He told me he would tell me if Iasked but what you do when apart is your own biz IMO. What I didn't realise is that he knew from then becuase the guy A had already been to him and told him about the one night stand. :mad:From then it has been headache non stop. He told me that I was breaking his heart once but that was over arranging to see my baby father for my Son to try and have contact. You know, this is the first time I have told the whole story to anyone...but now I am in pieces and a;though P has been no saint either (he got a girl I know vaguely preganant and told her to get rid) I know he loves me but he keeps just ringing my phone in the morning..like he wants me to give in or he thinks someone is here with me... Now totally and compltely broken
Author Zabs Posted October 9, 2011 Author Posted October 9, 2011 :bunny:not now! anyone know how to delete a post? Zabs xx
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