Bruised Not Broken Posted October 7, 2011 Posted October 7, 2011 I usually am so glum and bummed here...but I wanted to just share a little happy. I finally feel I'm reaching the point of total serenity with the BU. I miss the fun we had...sure. I miss the intimacy we shared...sure. But I see it was not genuine on his part and I know that I am so much better off without false happiness. After I got his insulting emails, I saw through FB he now is rather seriously involved with someone else. I knew he was out humping whores like a jack rabbit (sorry to be graphic...but he was turning into a real man whore) but now he seems to have settled down with someone. And, for a brief moment my chest tightened and my eyes filled up...and then I was overcome with a sense of peace. I truly hope she makes him happy and he finds the contentment he couldn't find with me. I'm not a big "prayer" but there is the old Serenity Prayer God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change The courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference. And, truly if we all learn to accept that we can't change our Ex's find teh courage to change our own actions and responses and know the difference between what is within our power and what isn't...we will all find that serenity. Now, I'm not sure if this peace is here to stay...maybe when I get PMS in a few weeks I'll be a sniffling mess...but I am soaking up every moment of this peace and enjoying it. it's a beautiful thing my friends. I wish you all a little serenity in your day. (I am NEVER this Polyanna, but feeling darn chipper today Love, Bruiser (Just for you antz
Thieves Posted October 8, 2011 Posted October 8, 2011 Now, I'm not sure if this peace is here to stay...maybe when I get PMS in a few weeks I'll be a sniffling mess...but I am soaking up every moment of this peace and enjoying it. it's a beautiful thing my friends. It is a beautiful thing, yes. I remember in the past where truly good peaceful days were few and far between, I'd be worried that the good feelings wouldn't last. That I'd be back to square one the next week. And even if I did end up back at square one, I realized that I should've just enjoyed the good days for what they were instead of being scared they won't last. Now what helps me is whenever I do have good days, I say "Wahoo! A good day!" And I just do my best to enjoy it. I don't really worry about whether it will last, because in a way it becomes a self-fulfulling prophecy, you know? (I am NEVER this Polyanna, but feeling darn chipper today Oh, please, don't be apologetic for being optimistic. We could all use a few Polyanna's with good wisdom on this board. Trust us.
mike111 Posted October 8, 2011 Posted October 8, 2011 Now, I'm not sure if this peace is here to stay... It will probably come and go for a bit. But in the end, it WILL stay. Know that to be the truth. And be well mike
Author Bruised Not Broken Posted October 9, 2011 Author Posted October 9, 2011 It will probably come and go for a bit. But in the end, it WILL stay. Know that to be the truth. And be well mike I do know that's true. Today was a little less serene. I felt the desire to express some unexpressed thoughts to Ex...nothing mean...actually the opposite. I sent a quick email to tell him that he still is one of the first things I think of every morning...and I realize each day how true my love for him was. And that I wish I had been able to more clearly convey that to him when I had the chance. That I know no matter how anyone tries, I don't believe they will take that place. Nothing more nothing less. He never bothered to reply...which hurt a little. A thank you would have been nice. But, it was my mistake for being sappy and nice. expecting that in return was silly. So, today I have a slight ache in my chest today...but I know that I can start over tomorrow hoping for the serenity again.
B_55 Posted October 9, 2011 Posted October 9, 2011 That I know no matter how anyone tries, I don't believe they will take that place. Nothing more nothing less. I'm still struggling with the idea of someone ever being able to take the place of my ex... but what would you tell your best friend if they had just gone through a huge break up? Have you ever know anyone that went thought a super bad break up and got another partner? I know I have, so I just have to remember that if other people can find someone new that I can too. You seem like a wonderful human being, you will find someone else (someone even better!)! -B
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