brokenheartedinaz Posted October 6, 2011 Posted October 6, 2011 (edited) There's thus guy I was seeing before my ex and I really liked him a lot, until he got all religious on me and told me he didn't want to be intimate anymore because it was wrong in God's eyes. I mean we went from seeing each other every night and having sex to him being distant and not contacting me barely. Anyhow, after that I started seeing my ex who I'm broken-hearted by now and he would randomly call me and invite me over to hang out when he was having a party. He even called me last Thanksgiving to say he thinks he was falling in love with me and got scared and that's why he pushed me away. I never hung out with him cause my ex hated the fact that him and I were together right before him. Well a few nights ago he invited me to a party at his house and I went for a couple hours just to get out. I spent the few hours there crying over my ex and telling him everything that happened. Well now he has been calling me and texting me everyday trying to hang out, offering to give me massages and bring me ice cream.He tells me that he realized how much of a good woman I was to him. I told him today that I only want to be friends with him and that I'm so hurt and broken right now that Men are the last thing I want. He then replied telling me that he is sorry I'm in pain and that he feels deeper for me more than a friend and that he hopes hanging out with me will make me stop missing my ex. That he wants to be friends and sees what happens from there. I told him that he could not fill the void in my heart and that nothing more than friendship will come out of it. I just find it so ironic that a year later here he is trying to hard now and I have absolutely no romantic interest in him now whatsoever! I'm like wtf>? How come they always want you when you don't want them? I think I am going to tell him being friends is not a good idea or hanging out when the other person has more than platonic feelings. I just wish my ex would be the one calling me to hang out and telling me he misses me. It's been days NC and it's not getting any easier. I know I told him that I would contact him when I was ready and to let me be cause it hurts too much, but deep down I feel even worse that I don't even get a "how are you?" text. I'm trying so hard to stay strong. Reading these posts from others hurting helps,but I feel like this pain is never going to go away,that it will always loom in the background no matter how much I try to have fun and stay busy. The nights are the worse as well as the weekends. I loved him more than anyone and he told me last that he still loves me too and has our pictures up but that he can't come back because of everything that has happened and our families knowing our business. I could use some comforting words right now. Edited October 6, 2011 by brokenheartedinaz
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