Brenton Posted September 28, 2011 Posted September 28, 2011 ok, so starting off, i was in a relationship with this girl for 3 years, of course we had our rough patches, but through it all, we managed 3 years. in this time, we loved, we fought, we had great times, we had terrible times, i cheated, she cheated, it was your basic mess. despite it all though, i was truly in love with this girl, doing things i still cant believe i did to this day for her, after about the 2 year marker, for the longest time, things were going pretty swell untill we found out that she was pregnant by 3 months. i was 18 (still am) by this point and wasnt ready for a child, but i personally do not believe in abortion, i am pro choice for the sake that i believe that people have the right to choose for themselves, but i personally to this day would not want to partake in it. long story short, we fought for 4 months on what to do with the situation, i wanted to keep it, seeing how financially me and my family could have supported it, and she wanted to abort it because it would ruin her life and ruin college plans and so on. so about 7 months in, i decided to abort it with her because i loved her more than life itself, and made a crucial life decision in her favor to show her i was there for her. to this day, i feel an awful amount of guilt for getting rid of our child, some nights i cry about it, but i did it because i loved her, and was there for her. afterwards, for the next year things were fine till about 5 months ago when i told her i wanted a break because i couldnt stand how i felt like no attention was coming my way, so we took a break for about 2 weeks till i called her crying because i felt misreable without her. she denied me for about 2 more weeks until she admitted that she was also madly in love and missed me more than anything. she was going to college in ny (we are from md) and we had numerous conversations about how we would make it work, it worried the both of us. eventually she went off to college, and we texted once or twice a day because of her busy schedule, it was irritating, but i understood. one night we had an argument about how this drought of attention was getting excessive, i eventually became furious and hung up in her. the next morning, i felt really bad and sent her a long message about how i was sorry, and hoped her a great day. she texted back saying "i love you too baby. im off to class". 2 days go by, i was waiting for her to text me... but nothing until i tried calling her, hours went by, i called again, she answered, she said "stop calling me" and immediately hung up. i texte her saying "baby if you dont want to be with me, atleast tell me :(". sure enough i got a text back "i dont want to be with you". i responded with "...i understand, im sorry my love.." and left her alone for the rest of the day until night came were i lost it and sent her a good 34 texts begging and apologizing, she ignored it all. i eventually gave up and started the grieving process. 6 days after we break up, my mom tells me that facebook says she has a new boyfriend (i blocked her on fb). my heart sank, as it was true, and not some guy she met in ny, but some 23yo loser whoes in an 80s wanabe metal band(singer). i sent her a voicemail asking how could you move on so quick. i answered my own question with the assumption that they had been talking for some time. so again, i tried to forget about her. i did me for the longest time and focused on making myself happy, which was going great, until i realized one day that i had a missed call from her. i texted asking why she called, she replied with her:"yeah sorry" me:"lol you dont have to be sorry, whyd u call?" her:"oh i wanted to know a deal on a tv i bought" (i work at best buy) me:"you can go online for that you know" her:"yeah but i think i got a good one! hah" i didnt say anything back, but its driving me crazy, why the hell is she calling about a damn tv? after ripping my heart out, she wants to know about a tv? was this just an excuse to talk to me because she misses me? she could have atleast apologized for hurting me so badly... i dont know what to think of it, and honestly, if she called right now and poured her heart out saying she was sorry and begged for me back...id take her, i know that sounds pathetic, but i still love her... im just not sure at all what to think of this stupid little call, its bothering me soooo much, and i want to decipher it so i can move on! someone help
Chi townD Posted September 28, 2011 Posted September 28, 2011 Just breadcrumbs Dude! She pulling on the leash to see if the dog is still there. I would ignore her. Remember, she left you and got close to a guy in a 80's tribute hairband! You deserve better!
antz2411 Posted September 28, 2011 Posted September 28, 2011 Fact is this...you know what the smart thing to do is. You are reluctant to do the smart thing because you are afraid she is the best you can get. so the choice is yours. live by fear and you know what a miserable pathetic existance that will be, for you and her or be a man, drop her and get out and hit on women. as man how can you even consider accepting back a woman who so called loved you and then lets a guy rail her from behind.. cmon bro!
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