The beautiful, but hard, beginning of a connection:getting (too) attached to someone

[mittk]

I have been seeing this girl for a few weeks. We went on a number of dates (about 6 so far) - including the last one being a sleepover - no sex happened, but we have both enjoyed getting to know eachother and working on what we both feel is a beautiful connection.

 

We went into this not really expecting much - but after our first date, we started texting and grew very attracted to one another. She was, it seemed to me, particularly eager to keep this connection going - for the first two weeks, her texts were frequent and keen. I was also into it, drawn to this also by her attraction to the whole thing. We kept making plans to meet, and every time it turned out to be better than the previous.

 

We last met two nights ago - it was great, we both enjoyed seeing each other and we left, I felt, both wanting more.

 

Two nights ago we had a discussions about how we both agree that while this is beautiful, we are in no position to commit right now (we both have things going on) - but that we'd take it easy and not rush anything. She initiated this discussion, but I agreed beause that works great for the both of us.

 

The problem is, I am afraid I have grown too attached to her. I miss her terribly, and for the past two days, I have not stopped thinking of her. We exchanged a few texts, but they weren't as eager as the texts we exchanged a month ago when we initially met. That isn't an issue in and of itself, I am just worried that I am investing myself emotionally too much (despite not being in an official relationship), that anything less than full committment will hurt.

 

I am serious when I say I can't committ to a full time relationship (because we can't physically see each other as frequently as we'd need to), but care through things such as phone calls and texts is what I'd be happy with. We do text, but not as much as I've just realized I need.

 

I kind of tried to text her this last night but she politely shut it off. I haven't lost her - we will still see each other and I know she cares - but I feel as though unless I can have her 100%, the rest of the time is one big heartbreak.

 

Has anyone been in a situation like this? I don't want to tell her I need full committment, because this might turn her off completely, yet the silence between not hearing from her (even if just via text) is really tough. I didn't think I'd emotionally get into this so much, and now it only hurts.

 

Being social doesn't help - I keep checking my phone every two minutes.