Author YuGr. Posted October 7, 2011 Author Posted October 7, 2011 (edited) Well guys, this took a hell of a twist lmao. She ended up breaking up with her boyfriend a week from yesterday and I took her out to dinner the same day (lol). We had make up sex, she slept over all weekend and started officially going out again. I felt weird though, not excited. Happy, sure, but I was ecstatic like I was expecting myself to be. I have been waiting for this for 3 months every single day, and when I got her back it just didn't feel like it's what I wanted anymore...... I wasn't interested in her.. She was being very clingy and very LOVING... Too loving.. It pushed me away and made me doubt this so much for the last week. I had been flirting back and forth with a girl from work in the last 2 months and I flirted with her 2 days ago. The ex who I got back snooped through my phone and found the texts. She went hysterical on me, and I was just standing there looking at her end things and I must say.. I didn't really feel like it was worth defending myself... I apologized for my actions and that it had to end for good this way.. Although she's the one who broke up with me, screaming and crying and claiming she can't trust me. Now we're broken up again for good this time. And I must admit, I miss her and feel a little heartbroken again... WHY????? The whole time I was back with her, I wasn't into it at all.. I was considering breaking up with her soon because we've had so much history together, there's just too much that the second we started dating again last week it just felt like old times again and I guess it's not what I wanted. She was very excited and very happy and committed to it this time, I however wasn't. Now why am I heartbroken and miss her? I guess it's only because I can't have her? I'm killing myself wanting something I don't actually want....... help Edited October 7, 2011 by YuGr.
M2155 Posted October 7, 2011 Posted October 7, 2011 Wow I have no advice for you other than what you already said, but very interesting story. Yeah maybe you want what you don't have and when you successfully got it back, the thrill of the chase was gone. OR, maybe you changed during the time apart and realized you were not so dependent on having her there. I don't know as my only relatable experience was from college- we got back together, seemed like the right thing to do and we were happy but it never felt the same. Like, almost too familiar.
lalalandman Posted October 8, 2011 Posted October 8, 2011 Well, it seems like she was just looking for another easy way out. Just let her go. I know it really sucks, but she's confused, just as much as you are.
Author YuGr. Posted October 8, 2011 Author Posted October 8, 2011 Yeah... So I guess so long for any of this. Thanks to everyone who commented and on my other thread. Guess it's time to move on after all. I'm still sad and I still miss her despite everything. She blocked me on facebook and I really don't see her ever looking back after that. And I wasn't happy with her, so I better start learning to be happy without her. Thanks to everyone
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