Kageytn Posted September 20, 2011 Posted September 20, 2011 I am not. I am not. I am not. I am not. I don't even know why I want to talk to him. Habit, I guess. We have a cycle. I withdraw. He pushes. I come back. He then gets controlling and manipulative. It usually lasts a week or so and this cycle lasted four days. Four days before I saw his behavior getting controlling and demanding. He demanded I don't mention having plans to him. I am not to discuss my social life with him at all. He demanded to know where I am working and who is paying for my travel (in his world, the only way I can afford to travel is by him paying for it). So, I stopped contact before the cycle got worse. I can do this. I might flood the board but I can do this. I desperately want to ask why the cycle was so short this time. Is it because I see him more clearly now? Is it because we are so used to doing this dance? It doesn't matter, though, does it? I would like to think it is a sign of progress. I was thinking of giving his stuff back but I think it will create a huge freak out. All I have are gifts and a blanket and t-shirt. Would it be bad to give the clothing and the blanket to the help office? I don't want to give him an excuse to contact me. I don't want it to be a grand gesture to get rid of his stuff. I just want it out of my house. He will take it as a slap in his face and bombard me with texts and emails and calls. I don't want to deal with that crap.
gluttonForPunishment Posted September 20, 2011 Posted September 20, 2011 I am not. I am not. I am not. I am not. I don't even know why I want to talk to him. Habit, I guess. We have a cycle. I withdraw. He pushes. I come back. He then gets controlling and manipulative. It usually lasts a week or so and this cycle lasted four days. Four days before I saw his behavior getting controlling and demanding. He demanded I don't mention having plans to him. I am not to discuss my social life with him at all. He demanded to know where I am working and who is paying for my travel (in his world, the only way I can afford to travel is by him paying for it). So, I stopped contact before the cycle got worse. I can do this. I might flood the board but I can do this. I desperately want to ask why the cycle was so short this time. Is it because I see him more clearly now? Is it because we are so used to doing this dance? It doesn't matter, though, does it? I would like to think it is a sign of progress. I was thinking of giving his stuff back but I think it will create a huge freak out. All I have are gifts and a blanket and t-shirt. Would it be bad to give the clothing and the blanket to the help office? I don't want to give him an excuse to contact me. I don't want it to be a grand gesture to get rid of his stuff. I just want it out of my house. He will take it as a slap in his face and bombard me with texts and emails and calls. I don't want to deal with that crap. Just get rid of it somehow... If you make a point to give it back you are right it will start you two talking all over again. If you are afraid to throw it away cuz he might ask for it , then put it in a box tape it up and stick in a closet. If he hasn't asked for it in a month then toss it.
Author Kageytn Posted September 20, 2011 Author Posted September 20, 2011 He just text me. Im going to ignore.
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