luvjezza Posted September 19, 2011 Posted September 19, 2011 I feel very confused. Recently, I did sexual things with a man that I spent a long time flirting with. He used to be my boss, but he no longer works for the company. When we worked together, I had what I'd consider a bit of a crush on him. I found him attractive, loved how he dressed and he made me smile. Flirting with him was fun, exciting and satisfying. I used to dream about him several nights a week and some of those dreams were sexual in nature. He phoned me up and invited me to his house. Out of curiosity, and the fact that I do miss seeing his face at work, I decided to go. He made the first move by kissing me passionately, after we spent a good hour catching up, and soon after we were naked and things were happening. Strangely, I felt incredibly disconnected during the whole thing. Not only that, but despite the actions he was performing, I didn't really feel much in the way of arousal. I mean, when there was direct contact with the ladybits, yes, there was arousal. But, everything else, just didn't do anything for me. It was almost like I felt like I was outside my own body looking in at what was going on. Yet, I didn't feel any real desire or urge to stop what was happening. After it was over, I went home, with an "I'll call you" from him and since then I've been obsessing over the whole experience. There's a part of me that NOW is feeling rather fondly about the whole thing. I keep thinking about it and replaying it over in my head and when I do that, I don't feel as disconnected, but then there are moments where I'm very much of the remorseful 'what the hell was I thinking' mind. Now, this man is married. And, I'm not PROUD of the fact that I helped him cheat. I have no idea if he has a history of cheating or if this was a one off, simply because in the time we worked together he NEVER struck me as the sort who would cheat. In fact, he always seemed to be embarrassed and blushing about my flirting. Even on the occasions where he'd attempt to flirt back with me, he'd still turn red. But, I still find myself wanting another 'hook up' with him, despite feeling so awkward and not interested initially. I'm just can't understand why in the midst I was so unemotional, but now I'm almost craving the incident. I don't feel like it's any sort of attachment I'm getting to him. And I certainly don't want an on-going relationship with him. Perhaps, I should have prefaced all this with the fact that before this incident, I hadn't had sex, nor even been touched by a guy in 3 years. What is going on in my head??
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