tattoo_lover Posted September 18, 2011 Posted September 18, 2011 Hi guys, I thought I'd post as I have read a few posts and I really need to get everything off my chest. Not sure if I need advice as such, because I don't know what can be said.. but this is my story. I'm a 19 year old gay girl. I had been single a while when I started talking to a girl online. We got on really well and went on a date which went very well. We started seeing each other and had what I thought was a brilliant relationship. It was genuinely everything I could have wanted from a partner/relationship. We had been together only a couple of months, seeing each other very regularly (we live 10 minutes away from each other) when she seemed to be a bit quieter etc. I knew something was wrong when we had agreed to spend her birthday together, but she cancelled saying she didn't fancy doing anything. I told her I wanted to know what was happening and we agreed to meet up. She broke up with me saying she had a lot on her mind etc and usually she likes to make her girlfriends a priority, but she couldn't with me, because she had so much on her mind. I accepted it and we agreed to stay friends. In fact she said she'd 'love to stay friends' and we spoke regularly over the next few days. it was hard, but I didn't show that I was struggling. A week or so later, I realised there will come a time when she meets someone else, so I politely asked by text if she could tell me rather than just letting me find out on facebook etc that she'd met someone. She said she had no intention of meeting anyone else at that time but that she wouldn't let me find out on facebook. I went looking for someone else. It was the only way I knew to heal my broken heart. I told her when I met someone and we chatted. She asked me how my recent holiday was etc. Later that day, bam! Deleted off facebook. I texted and asked why. No response. I sent a couple of further texts, but again, got no response. I left it. About a month later, I got a text from her. Before I opened it, I expected an apology... or something. Just something. Instead I got a text which said 'it turns out C does fancy me!' (C is a girl who was dating one of my ex's friends and who my ex and I both suspected of fancying her). I replied with 'thought so'. Another month later and I had a plumbing problem. I probably shouldn't have, but I contacted my ex (she was a good plumber and carpenter etc) and asked her what to do about the problem. She replied but only related to the problem. I then said 'it's a shame we aren't friends anymore '. She said 'how so?'.. I replied 'just miss chatting, that's all'. (nearly finshed btw lol) She had a rugby match today, so on Friday, I texted, wishing her luck. She replied with a very nice text thanking me and saying she was impressed I remembered. Now, evidently, she does not want friendship. I am seeing someone new (yes, I know I shouldn't have got involved with someone while still heartbroken... but the girl I'm seeing understands how I feel about the situation, and we're going ridiculously slowly, so it's not a heavy relationship or anything like that). I don't understand why I'm so heartbroken. It's obviously sad about the end of the relationship, but I think I'm a lot more sad about the fact that she just walked out of my life without a second thought. She talks to all her other exes, so I just assumed we'd be friends. She was actually the one person I didn't think would disappear. Especially without saying anything. Part of me has all these questions - will we ever be friends? Why did she just disappear? etc... It just hurts so much. I really had to get that all off my chest, so thank you for reading.
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