PrettyDress Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 I made a post earlier- much to my embarrassment. I like to write, and I love to give details. Thank you for the bluntness, I needed that. I changed my number, deleted emails, text messages and pictures. I put my son down to hed, which his name is NOT Oliver but a name I always wanted to name him. Unfortunately he came out a boy so traditionally in my family the mom names girl and dad names son. Anyways, I came clean to my boyfriend. I told him I did it because I wanted a thrill, a change in my sex life. I was selfish, naive and wrong. After I read the replies I got, I felt so guilty and ashamed. I hope I can really drop this guy cold turkey. Knowing my baby daddy deserves better made me realize so does the wife. I had unprotected sex and that is just dumb. I am so sorry for being too explicit, ugh. I thought if I had given enough details then maybe I would get accurate answers. And I did so thank you.
Author PrettyDress Posted September 17, 2011 Author Posted September 17, 2011 I am such an idiot and I really need to get some self confidence. A little more decency. a lot more actually. I feel so foolish and this is ALL cyber communication. I am ao disgusted right now with myself. If there is God then I hope I can find him. Or least find inner happiness.
Emme Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 I read your post. Congrats on going cold turkey. If need support POST.
country_gurl Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 I made a post earlier- much to my embarrassment. I like to write, and I love to give details. Thank you for the bluntness, I needed that. I changed my number, deleted emails, text messages and pictures. I put my son down to hed, which his name is NOT Oliver but a name I always wanted to name him. Unfortunately he came out a boy so traditionally in my family the mom names girl and dad names son. Anyways, I came clean to my boyfriend. I told him I did it because I wanted a thrill, a change in my sex life. I was selfish, naive and wrong. After I read the replies I got, I felt so guilty and ashamed. I hope I can really drop this guy cold turkey. Knowing my baby daddy deserves better made me realize so does the wife. I had unprotected sex and that is just dumb. I am so sorry for being too explicit, ugh. I thought if I had given enough details then maybe I would get accurate answers. And I did so thank you. How do you know you're now not pregnant? How do you know you now don't have some kind of sexually transmitted disease that you're going to (if you haven't already) pass on to your baby-daddy/boyfriend? You should seriously get yourself tested for all STDs. While your dirty farmer may have claimed that you were the first time he cheated, you have NO idea if that is true or not........in fact it's very likely that you're not the first and as such you have no idea what STDs he might have. This is apparently, by your own admittance in your other post, your 2nd affair. You're 21 with a young child and this is the 2nd affair; you seriously need to get some professional counseling to help you get the bottom of why you have so little respect for yourself/your body/your health/your partner/the wives of the men you've cheated with. Seriously.
Emme Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 She needs to be SINGLE. But that's just my opinion. Young mother and tied down, she's breaking at he seams. If you are still breast feeding please don't. I didn't see a age only that you had a baby. Do not breast feed your child at all. Get tested to make sure you are healthy and then wait 6 months then get tested again. I didn't know this was a 2nd affair. It's time for you to truly talk to someone. If you have a caring, loving, understanding mother... start there.
country_gurl Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 She needs to be SINGLE. But that's just my opinion. Young mother and tied down, she's breaking at he seams. If you are still breast feeding please don't. I didn't see a age only that you had a baby. Do not breast feed your child at all. Get tested to make sure you are healthy and then wait 6 months then get tested again. I didn't know this was a 2nd affair. It's time for you to truly talk to someone. If you have a caring, loving, understanding mother... start there. In her original post she indicated that her child is 2 years old.
wannabdone Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 Okay, wait. I'm a little confused as to what all has gone on in such a short amount of time. So within just the few hours of the posts... you went from hot and heavy with the farmer, to deleted emails, telling your boyfriend, chaning your number, etc. etc. WOW! I must say, that is a lot of things to get done in such a very little amount of time. And also you came clean with your boyfriend, but yet you still are able to get on the internet??? I would think if you just came clean with in the last few hours, the last thing you would be doing is getting on the internet, either because you might still be talking out this VERY torrid affair, or most the time when a boyfriend finds out someone is cheating, the last thing they allow is them to be on the internet or phone. And further more.... if you feel so damn guilty...why are you on here telling us what you have done??? Why are you not with your baby daddy as you call him, making things right with him?? I'm sorry but this just doesn't seem to be adding up. 21, one child with one man, 2 affairs, talking about sex to the point it needs to be on a XXX rated forum... girl, come on..... you need more than just Jesus. You need to seriously go get some help. So after the replies you felt so guilty and ashamed as you say. But then you turn around and say you hope you can quit this guy cold turkey???? That doesn't seem like guilt or ashamed to me, only being moments after you just came clean and you don't know and hope you can quit this guy cold turkey. Girl, right after you SO finds out of an A, that is the point where you are "i'm never seeing this guy again", etc. etc. Not "I hope I can quit him cold turkey". Sorry, your story isn't adding up to me. Either, you really didn't do what you said tonight, or your leaving some stuff out. Just not adding up.
omkara Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 Thank you for the bluntness, I needed that. Why do I feel like I might've had something to do with this? Good luck, OP. We'll be here if you need to vent.
country_gurl Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 Okay, wait. I'm a little confused as to what all has gone on in such a short amount of time. So within just the few hours of the posts... you went from hot and heavy with the farmer, to deleted emails, telling your boyfriend, chaning your number, etc. etc. WOW! I must say, that is a lot of things to get done in such a very little amount of time. And also you came clean with your boyfriend, but yet you still are able to get on the internet??? I would think if you just came clean with in the last few hours, the last thing you would be doing is getting on the internet, either because you might still be talking out this VERY torrid affair, or most the time when a boyfriend finds out someone is cheating, the last thing they allow is them to be on the internet or phone. And further more.... if you feel so damn guilty...why are you on here telling us what you have done??? Why are you not with your baby daddy as you call him, making things right with him?? I'm sorry but this just doesn't seem to be adding up. 21, one child with one man, 2 affairs, talking about sex to the point it needs to be on a XXX rated forum... girl, come on..... you need more than just Jesus. You need to seriously go get some help. So after the replies you felt so guilty and ashamed as you say. But then you turn around and say you hope you can quit this guy cold turkey???? That doesn't seem like guilt or ashamed to me, only being moments after you just came clean and you don't know and hope you can quit this guy cold turkey. Girl, right after you SO finds out of an A, that is the point where you are "i'm never seeing this guy again", etc. etc. Not "I hope I can quit him cold turkey". Sorry, your story isn't adding up to me. Either, you really didn't do what you said tonight, or your leaving some stuff out. Just not adding up. I agree. For anyone to have done such a quick 180, doesn't add up. Troll? Someone who gets some kind of a thrill sharing amateur (and in this case VERY amateur) literotica to see what kind of reaction they get?
jj33 Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 Pretty I give you the benefit of the doubt. You are 21 which despite having a child is young, you are bored and you got caught up in something you shouldnt have. Maybe your bf doesnt pay attention to you and you were caught up in the thrill of the farmer. Maybe you live somewhere rural and dont have a lot of friends around to talk to who would have given you the same response you got in your thread (if they werent also so bored that they didnt say wow that sounds exciting). Anyway if you are for real and you have decided to quit the farmer Im sure you can stick to your decision. Youve told your bf now, that cant have been easy and good luck to you going forward
wannabdone Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 I agree. For anyone to have done such a quick 180, doesn't add up. Troll? Someone who gets some kind of a thrill sharing amateur (and in this case VERY amateur) literotica to see what kind of reaction they get? Thats kind of my impression.
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