intigo Posted September 15, 2011 Posted September 15, 2011 ok people i need your help.(brokeup 45 days ago) I had my closure from the girl of my dreams ten days ago. i thought i was getting better then i started feeling really weird. I dont know whats happening to me i think im changing, the only joy i feel during the day is only when i embrace the pain from the break up. Is this normal? today i caught my self smiling thinking about her cold words. I dont like myself, its really strange i cant think clearly she is in my every thought i KNOW i wont be with her never again and that has destroyed my already broken heart. I m on my knees and i dont know if i want to get up. Do i want to find myself? sure, but these last crazy days my sorrow and the darkness i feel inside me, is the only think that calms me.I know i sound paranoid. Has anyone felt this way? Will this stop or it will get worse? Am i falling into depression? I have survived other break ups but this one is a living hell it scares me i cant fight it, i dont have the power and i dont recognise myself. Disturbed-stricken this song tottaly explains the way i feel You walk on like a woman in suffering Won't even bother now to tell me why You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment Leaving me broken another time You come on like a bloodstained hurricane Leave me alone, let me be this time You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption I don't want to mention, the reason I know That I am stricken and can't let you go When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know That I am crippled by all that you've done Into the abyss will I run You don't know what your power has done to me I want to know if I'll heal inside I can't go on with a holocaust about to happen Seeing you laughing another time You'll never know why your face has haunted me My very soul has to bleed this time Another hole in the wall of my inner defenses Leaving me breathless, the reason I know That I am stricken and can't let you go When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know That I am crippled by all that you've done Into the abyss will I run
idontunderstan Posted September 15, 2011 Posted September 15, 2011 i dont know if it's normal but I can kind of relate to that feeling... I'm going through the roughest ****ing time of my life and I feel like im losing a lot of the support that I had a few weeks ago.... It feels good thinking of the memories, even the bad ones. I know for me, Ill be thinking of the bad times and say to myself, "It would be all worth it to me to go back and go through all the bad times if I could just be with her" She was controlling over me and really mean to me at times but I cant get over the fact that she was sweet also and had the cutest voice and I just loved the way she talked and moved. What I think Im trying to say is, it feels good to feel sorry for you self...but it's probably not healthy. That's all we really want, I think, is for people to feel sorry for us. But that sorry feeling soon turns to pity and then people just stop caring because the time for sorrow has past for them, even if it hasn't for you. I don't know if im at any position to be giving advice but I know I like reading what people have to say and I noticed no one commented on your post so I figured I would, just to know people are here for you... Hope things get better, for both of us.
omkara Posted September 15, 2011 Posted September 15, 2011 tl;dr But the fact that you're counting the days since you broke up isn't exactly "normal." It's actually kind of crazy.
idontunderstan Posted September 15, 2011 Posted September 15, 2011 tl;dr But the fact that you're counting the days since you broke up isn't exactly "normal." It's actually kind of crazy. Who the hell are you to call him crazy? This forum is supposed to be about support, not insulting others.
mike588 Posted September 15, 2011 Posted September 15, 2011 ok people i need your help.(brokeup 45 days ago) I had my closure from the girl of my dreams ten days ago. i thought i was getting better then i started feeling really weird. I dont know whats happening to me i think im changing, the only joy i feel during the day is only when i embrace the pain from the break up. Is this normal? today i caught my self smiling thinking about her cold words. I dont like myself, its really strange i cant think clearly she is in my every thought i KNOW i wont be with her never again and that has destroyed my already broken heart. I m on my knees and i dont know if i want to get up. Do i want to find myself? sure, but these last crazy days my sorrow and the darkness i feel inside me, is the only think that calms me.I know i sound paranoid. Has anyone felt this way? Will this stop or it will get worse? Am i falling into depression? I have survived other break ups but this one is a living hell it scares me i cant fight it, i dont have the power and i dont recognise myself. Disturbed-stricken this song tottaly explains the way i feel You walk on like a woman in suffering Won't even bother now to tell me why You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment Leaving me broken another time You come on like a bloodstained hurricane Leave me alone, let me be this time You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption I don't want to mention, the reason I know That I am stricken and can't let you go When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know That I am crippled by all that you've done Into the abyss will I run You don't know what your power has done to me I want to know if I'll heal inside I can't go on with a holocaust about to happen Seeing you laughing another time You'll never know why your face has haunted me My very soul has to bleed this time Another hole in the wall of my inner defenses Leaving me breathless, the reason I know That I am stricken and can't let you go When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know That I am crippled by all that you've done Into the abyss will I run I know what your going thru and the feelings your having ,you are not alone. I too and going thru my own personal hell at this time. You are going to experience all kinds of emotions when suffering a breakup, one minute sad next minute feeling alittle better and so on. It's normal to feel what your feeling and to think of her almost every moment. I'll catch myself feeling really good then wonder and worry how long will this last or is ok to feel better. This pain will go away slowly,, it takes time, sometimes lots of time. I too am counting the days. You said you have been thru breakups in the past, you survived and YOU WILL SURVIVE this one too I promise you!! I strongly recommend getting some professional help. I did and it helps do much. Good Luck, keep us posted.
Author intigo Posted September 16, 2011 Author Posted September 16, 2011 tl;dr But the fact that you're counting the days since you broke up isn't exactly "normal." It's actually kind of crazy. I m not counting!!! She broke up with me 2nd of august so its math...hahaha I wanted to give some info to you, thats why i put the numbers
Author intigo Posted September 16, 2011 Author Posted September 16, 2011 I am a big movie fun. My relationship was my favourite movie it didnt have a happy end and as much as i want to see the sequel the production company is closed...thanks for your answers people.
omkara Posted September 17, 2011 Posted September 17, 2011 Who the hell are you to call him crazy? Are you kidding me? I didn't call HIM crazy. I said "it" was crazy: the act of counting the days since him and his ex broke up. Who the hell are you to falsely accuse me? :/ This forum is supposed to be about support, not insulting others. He ASKED if what he was doing was "normal," in which I gave him my honest opinion in a nutshell. That's called support, my friend. Stop sticking your nose in places it doesn't belong. I m not counting!!! She broke up with me 2nd of august so its math...hahaha I wanted to give some info to you, thats why i put the numbers I apologize. But you'll be OK, man. It sounds like you may be a masochist and enjoy feeling taken over by overwhelming emotion. As a recovery method, I suggest turning this girl into art. Poetry perhaps?
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