Need to vent!

[A7X]

Alright, weather you've been following my journey or not, it's been one hell of a ride for me in the last almost 2 months. I just need to vent out about everything, if you have encouraging words feel free to leave them

 

I feel like I've been emotionaly used for the big and kind heart that I have for about a month's time, like I was just put on the side incase other things didn't work out for her. She kept me around saying she loved me, missed me, we could never be apart forever, planning trips, talking about having kids and the list goes on. Then one day she changed her mind in the span of 2 hours, the following week gone on a trip to Italy with some other guy that has been running after her for years and years.

 

I feel so betrayed, used, disrespected, lowered self-esteem, worthless to her, etc... I spent a year with this person, treating her like a princess as best I could, making her feel special with random flowers, random gifts, random outtings during our relationship. Yes we started arguing a lot about issues and in the end it was resolved for me and was I looking past it all since love is stronger then all. She dumped me by text, after an amazing phone conversation 2 hours before.

 

Now she's gone with this douchebag to Italy, that she bashed the whole time we were in our relationship, saying he's a player, uses women, egoistic, selfish, has STDs, etc... ( I've known this person as well for years and know that all this is true) Then a week after she is with this guy in Italy, seriously, WTF!! I just don't get it!! Did she fall for his promises? Does she really think she's going to be any different? Is she using him for his money? Seriously, what's wrong with this picture??

 

I'm just living so many emotions from one hour to the next.. From; I love you so much how can you do this. To; I hate you, you're just a gold digging w**re that takes advantage of people. I have good and bad days, today being a bad!

 

I'm sick and tired of being taken advantage of for my heart and just having it ripped out everytime. I give everything I have to make people feel special and wanted, yet in the end all I get is a slap in the face!! :'( The thought of everything makes me sick to my stomach

[Trolly]

Your anger is a normal and healthy reaction right now (i think). Those things that she did are very hurtful and disrespectful. I say embrace the anger right now and use it as motivation to move on with your life. Don't hold on to the anger for too long of course though.