aneesah1 Posted September 14, 2011 Posted September 14, 2011 My boyfriend and i love each other very much. we've been together for more than a year. we cant stand to be seperated. it feels a part of us is missing. but, the thing is we cant be together. my boyfriend is way older than me (20yrs age gap). some might say its insane to love someone tht much older but when it comes to love, its always crazy isnt it? my family do not support us due to the age gap and religious differences. my boyfriend and i have broke up countless times in our relationship. At times he realizes we cant be together and tries to break up..then, i would be the one desperately tryin to hold on, ignoring the truth tht we cant be together.. other times he can be very possessive of me and hot tempered so it will lead to fights and he ends up saying goodbye but always comes back.. sometimes he doesnt really trust me either. tht really bothers me... but i accept him for who he is..i know we're not made for each other. but seems like tht we cant let go either. we always seem to be back to this vicious cycle where we're breaking and patching. nw we're back together but i just sense tht its not gonna work.. nw, im the one whos feeling tht a future of us seems impossible.. he's clingin on nw.. i dun wanna face all tht hurt again frm breaking up a lot of times..i dun wanna go back to tht dark place.. i dun wanna hurt him too..i love him to the moon and back and i know he loves me as much.. we already knew being together in the future will be almost impossible..yet we're still holdin on, tryin to work it out.. help? what should i do? should i finally let go? but i cant see my life without him in it.. i still need him around.. he's the one who knows everythin abt me.. the one who can pick up my mood instantly.. the one who never fails to cheer me up when im down..
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