Starnette83 Posted May 8, 2004 Posted May 8, 2004 my bf and I broke up on thursday because he was being a liar and saying he was single when hes not, i dated him for 3.5 years! anyways i broke up with him cause we had broke up before and it seemed like it didnt matter to him, so i was tired of him taking me for granted and lying in my face...the thing is that i do care for him ALOT, i guess its part the long time we were together as well as being eachothers first... (im 21, hes 20) well yesterday i went out with a guy friend to a club, i drank a bit, and i went strait to the dance floor, my friend didnt wanna dance so i spent myself dancing alone, but it was ok, i was buzzed and i was having fun-anyways later guys came and danced with me, but i didnt wanna dance with anyone , part of me just wanted to be ALONE, i sometimes even began crying while i danced, cos iw as so mad at my bf!! later i saw some cute guy and i asked him if i could dance with him, and he said sure, then we danced and we sat down and we traded numbers and he told me i was a great dancer, that made me feel better..but either way i cant stop thinking about my ex, he hasnt called me at all and i feel likehe doesnt care its over..it pisses me off cos i still love him and i dont understand how he can be so cold and stupid after EVERYTHING we shared and after everything i did for him (massages, pleasure,listen, wash dishes when his mom was sick, etc...) its pathetic...but i have to get over him because i know that its the best thing...ugh..
Becks84 Posted May 9, 2004 Posted May 9, 2004 I understand how confusing and frustrating it is when suddenly our partner isn't on the "same page" as us in a relationship. It doesnt make sense to us that he doesnt feel the exact same way we do and we just cannot believe what is happening. But it is happening, and I truly believe everything happens for a reason. (Maybe in your case so that you will find someone new who will not take you for granted -- or maybe so that you will put your foot down and let him know how you want to be treated -- maybe if you two get back together, it will be better than ever.) Use this time to make some major changes...whether it be with yourself, with your ex, or in the relationship. Deep down you know that you deserve to be with someone who doesn't deny you in any way and is so very proud and happy all of the time that you are his. Maybe things are just getting old with the two of you. You've been together awhile. If you two want to get back together, maybe you can find ways to "spice" things up again! I dont know any details of your relationship, but maybe you are together too much. Or maybe it's simply the age he is at. A 20 year old guy in a committed relationship -- I think it's uncommon. Maybe he will be better for you in the future. If you two are meant to be, you will be -- as cheesy as that sounds. Just work on loving and respecting yourself more so that you will truly realize what you are worth, and so that you will not settle for any less! Best of luck to you
Author Starnette83 Posted May 9, 2004 Author Posted May 9, 2004 thanks beck..ya he is real young and i was his first and only gf so that was a problem for him:( all ive been doing today is think about him, even though ive gone out and tried to have a good time, i miss him alot...i really do..but he hasnt tried calling me..and that bugs me even more becuz it makes me feel that maybe he doesnt care... I dunno..i dont think we are gonna get back, just becuz we have broken up alot this year and gotten back, to a point where its stupid to keep going back, plus i need to move on, i just cant deal with this anymore, and even though i love him and miss him, i just cant...i have to move on cuz i dont want to be with soemone who will always make me feel unspecial and it sux! gosh..i dunno what imma do tonite but i dont want 2 stay home:(...yet its hard goin out with guyz cuz im not really interested, maybe imma hit the gym and then just have some alone time...not sure... either way part of me feelz like IM NEVER ever gonna forget him..and that he will alwayz be a part of me...we were so comfty with eachother..as much as to be able to dig our noses in front of eachother..as gross as that soundz..but nah we really liked eachother and i accepted him as he was and he accepted me as i was...sometimez i just think that maybe he does need to explore, but still i dont thinki can take him back after he explorez with other chickz..ugh..this all just pretty much sux..i dont know whats going to happen and im scared cuz i dont think i want to nor ever am gonna be able to feel ok with another guy..cuz im ALWAYS thinking of my ex!! ugh today is 3 day no contact..im scared cuz imma see him at school on MONDAY:(
Author Starnette83 Posted May 9, 2004 Author Posted May 9, 2004 this sux, its nite time and i have no one to go out with, would it be a bad idea to go to a club on my own??? ugh part of me wants to but part of me feels weird..gosh i miss hiM!!!!!!!!!! this sux so bad..why cant he just call me!!!!!!!!!!
meanttolive4ever Posted May 9, 2004 Posted May 9, 2004 Originally posted by Starnette83 this sux, its nite time and i have no one to go out with, would it be a bad idea to go to a club on my own??? ugh part of me wants to but part of me feels weird..gosh i miss hiM!!!!!!!!!! this sux so bad..why cant he just call me!!!!!!!!!! because guys are stupid and want to think that they're always right about everything...just wait...is all i can say..he might call out of the blue.
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