Nohbody Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 I keep thinking about all the things I'd like to say - the raging and the verbal bitch slapping I'd like to give her. I also feel the desire to check her blog. I'm not going to. I'm just venting these feelings here. yeesh. If she writes again, I hope it doesn't screw me up this much again.
Graceful Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 I keep thinking about all the things I'd like to say - the raging and the verbal bitch slapping I'd like to give her. I also feel the desire to check her blog. I'm not going to. I'm just venting these feelings here. yeesh. If she writes again, I hope it doesn't screw me up this much again. Maybe someone on LS will volunteer to take the bitch slap. (Raises hand). Go ahead. I dare you.
Karala Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 Maybe someone on LS will volunteer to take the bitch slap. (Raises hand). Go ahead. I dare you. Agreed. I don't know the first thing about your ex, but she annoys me. I'm sure she's not worth all that pining over.
LelouchIsZero Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 What happened the first time your ex tried to get into contact with you Nohbody? Would her attempting to contact you suggest that she cares about you still, in some way? I wonder how I'm going to react if my ex ever tries to talk to me. Its been around 4 months NC now, though I don't particularly think she'd plan on doing so anyway.
radiodarcy Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 i'm right there with you Nohbody. i keep imagining all the things i'd say to him if he reached out to me. but it's been six months and i haven't heard a peep out of him so i doubt i ever will. although, i could bitch-slap *myself* for responding to his crumbs the first time i went NC the second go round (this one) i made it very clear to him about why i was going NC. so i have a feeling he's staying away -- for his own protection, i reckon
Author Nohbody Posted September 9, 2011 Author Posted September 9, 2011 LelouchIsZero, I think that she's just making herself feel better. I don't think she really cares about me at all... but if she were to admit that, then she would be a jerk. And she CAN'T be a jerk, so she writes about how she still loves me. It's all nonsense and rationalization. It just hurts because it reopens the wound. But it's closing much faster and probably in a healthier fashion than previously. radiodarcy, I hope you never hear from them. It isn't fun. It's so selfish to contact again - even if they genuinely want another chance with you (which is not my case). First and foremostly it's about the other person making themselves feel better. No bueno.
radiodarcy Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 radiodarcy, I hope you never hear from them. It isn't fun. It's so selfish to contact again - even if they genuinely want another chance with you (which is not my case). First and foremostly it's about the other person making themselves feel better. No bueno. *sigh* you're right, Nohbody. even if he were to contact me and i had the chance to get everything out to him. he would probably simply shrug his shoulders; say "ok". and calmly walk away. which of course would only upset me more. grrr. but yeah - - it's so not worth it.
Author Nohbody Posted September 9, 2011 Author Posted September 9, 2011 radiodarcy, I don't want to be a pessimist, you know. Time has allowed me to more objectively view the person I was with, their behaviors, and how they decided to end things. After the crazies of being dumped mostly subsided, I just decided she was not acceptable to me. Or rather, ever re-entering a relationship with her is not acceptable to me. Not knowing anyone else's situation as I know mine, I can't say if it's really worth it or not. Trying to develop a game-plan ahead of time was helpful, but don't be surprised if it goes all to hell
Author Nohbody Posted September 9, 2011 Author Posted September 9, 2011 Maybe someone on LS will volunteer to take the bitch slap. (Raises hand). Go ahead. I dare you. Oh Grace, I could NEVER....
LelouchIsZero Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 Oh Grace, I could NEVER.... Don't worry, shes a masochist
radiodarcy Posted September 9, 2011 Posted September 9, 2011 radiodarcy, I don't want to be a pessimist, you know. Time has allowed me to more objectively view the person I was with, their behaviors, and how they decided to end things. After the crazies of being dumped mostly subsided, I just decided she was not acceptable to me. Or rather, ever re-entering a relationship with her is not acceptable to me. Not knowing anyone else's situation as I know mine, I can't say if it's really worth it or not. Trying to develop a game-plan ahead of time was helpful, but don't be surprised if it goes all to hell i hope to get to the point where you are Nohbody. it's been 6 months of NC and even though i feel much better i still have my moments. they're more frequent than i'd like. but i try to see it as all being part of the purge. he was my first love and everything else. so it's going to take time. you're right, though - -the rational part of me knows that having a game plan is pointless. but it's all good -- anything i have to say to him i can say on here, anyway. getting it out - - regardless of to whom (well anyone but him ) is all that matters
Graceful Posted September 10, 2011 Posted September 10, 2011 Oh Grace, I could NEVER.... Just thought I'd offer. (reaches up, takes your hat off and flings it across the room, grabs scarf and flings it off as well) Now. Does that make it easier? Otherwise, if you want a dope slap, just ask, I'm real good at those.
Author Nohbody Posted September 10, 2011 Author Posted September 10, 2011 Those are my accouterments. There will be a reckoning.
Graceful Posted September 10, 2011 Posted September 10, 2011 Those are my accouterments. There will be a reckoning. You're on. Go ahead. (runs over to the hat and scarf and stuffs them down into my tee shirt) Now how do you plan to get them back?
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