justagirrl Posted September 6, 2011 Posted September 6, 2011 Well, I'm going NC...again. My ex is leaving for california to be on american idol and tonight we were texting and discussed seeing each other before he leaves. I AM NOT contacting him. If he wants to see me, he knows what to do. This is gonna be really tough, I miss him so much and I get the urge to text him all the time but I'm not. And I'm sticking to it this time. If I don't see him before he leaves, everyone needs to help me vote for everyone BUT HIM. lol
geegirl Posted September 6, 2011 Posted September 6, 2011 I had a feeling things were still brewing between the two of you. I think you've had your answer within you for a long time but you were fighting it, wanting to believe so badly that there was still a chance, that, maybe, just maybe. I followed your story from the start. He never showed any indication of being man that wanted to be in an R. I read your post about him peeing everywhere and being drunk. He's a boy. A boy that is emotionally and mentally immature. One that cannot give you what you want. I've seen more of that from what you've shared with me. He's not where you want him to be. He's not the kind that's ready to be completely there with one woman. He's the kind that wants to live life every which way he can have it. You are a beautiful woman. You deserve a man that is PRESENT in emotionally and mentally. One that can be there to protect you. One who will take care of you when you're drunk, sick, sad, helpless, etc. One who can give you everything you want and reciprocate your feelings of love and care. You're settling for qualities that are externally appealing. It's never enough. Dig deep and truly analyze who he is as a person. In time when your emotions are subsiding, you'll realize you pursued him for all the wrong reasons. And you'll realize that you need so much more in your life versus settling for a pretty boy who constantly broke your heart. Please keep NC. Sometimes we have to get beaten down a few times before it finally sinks in. Let him go and live his life. You need to live yours and make it the best you can. I know you're caught up with the AI thing and his talents, etc. But if you're empty inside, it all doesn't matter. He will have nothing to offer but his talents. And that, is never good enough to give you what you want in a healthy, nourishing and reciprocal relationship. It has to be deeper than that. Something he is just not capable of.
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