jkl6158 Posted September 6, 2011 Posted September 6, 2011 First off for all the people who like to drown their miseries in sad breakup songs like me, came across this which is excellent: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uEi8d3TltyA Anyways, 2 months after the end of a mere 4 month relationship my heart is still in a million little pieces, and I have no idea how to put them back together. I had my heart broken before by my ex of 5 years... you would think 4 months would be easier to deal with, but it's not. He told me he just didn't feel that spark with me despite the fact that he sure seemed to the whole time. I thought the spark was incredible. I don't know if he wasn't over his ex and perhaps couldn't help but compare me to her, or I just wasn't the right girl for him as compatible as we seemed. Either way I can't imagine he's coming back. We were going to try remaining friends and we were supposed to talk about things, but I haven't heard from him in a few weeks now, so I guess being friends wasn't actually important to him. The past few days I couldn't shake him from my mind. So I just wrote another one of many many letters... only unlike all the others this one I actually sent... I hope I don't regret it. I basically told him I missed him and that I was in love with him (something I never told him), but that his actions show that I don't matter to him so I am going to try my best to move on. And that the purpose of the letter was to give myself closure, because I need to stop waiting for my phone to ring and it be him. I also said I also thought he was an amazing person and that I wished him the best in everything and wouldn't bother him anymore. Part of me really meant it when I said I wrote it for closure. He's not coming back and I know that. I need to pick myself up and move on. But there is a part of me hoping he'll read it and realize he lost a really great girl who would have loved him with all her heart. I need to move on and yet I can't stop crying. I have all the text messages he's ever sent me on my phone, and I can't find the willpower to let go and delete them all even though I know I should. Why do I have this sick need to hold on to him? It's not going to change a thing. I guess this is just a rant. It's been a really hard day and there's still no light at the end of the tunnel.
Nohbody Posted September 6, 2011 Posted September 6, 2011 It's the same advice, but you know - we'll go through the motions: 4 months? Must have been pretty intense. It's good that it ended when it did, though. If the other person was having doubts, be thankful it didn't drag out longer than it did. Just take it slowly. It sucks when this happens, but hopefully you'll have or find some things to get your mind focused on other matters. Take yourself on a date. Go see a movie. I hear Conan is terrible, might be just the thing to cheer you up!
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