monkeyshaman Posted September 5, 2011 Posted September 5, 2011 After one of the more challenging relationship I ever had (also the most rewarding) she finally ended up breaking things with me. The break up went pretty well with minimal contact and I even thought I was on the way to winning her back. But alas I screwed up, got to eager and last night pushed her to far. She is still talking to me immediately but I think I ruined my chances for a quick recovery on this break. I tried to tell her all the wonderful things we had and it just made her dig her heals in deeper and push back. I feel so foolish because things were going alright before that. I just could not take the "i dont know how I feel" answer anymore. I still love her so dearly but it seems it was just not our time. I hope that I can still play a part in her life at some point but right now that seems almost impossible. So it seems I went through the bargaining stage of grief and now comes good ol depression. I dont really even get it because we had such a hard relationship at times and I even thought about ending it before but I cared about her to much to let it go. I don't really know why I am writing this I just had to get it out I guess. Its just so hard when for almost 4 years you planned your whole life around being with someone and then they are just gone. I am just going to miss her and her 5 yr old son so much. Sorry for being such a downer I just had to get it out.
Author monkeyshaman Posted September 5, 2011 Author Posted September 5, 2011 I should have just payed attention to my own GD self. Ha
wilsonx Posted September 6, 2011 Posted September 6, 2011 Thats the biggest lesson everyone learns, I learned it, you learned it, people all over the board learn it. If yourself is telling you something, do it! If it means ending a relationship, do it and dont regret it
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