justagirrl Posted September 4, 2011 Posted September 4, 2011 Thursday night was the first football game of the season at my school (rutgers)...so I went to the game and I get a text from my ex saying "Hey what's up?" I told him I was at the game and asked if he was there and he said no. Then he asked me if theres any parties going on after and I said yes, so he wanted to come. I haven't seen him since May, and I missed him a lot and told him he can come with me to the parties after the game... We met up...he came with his roommate from last year (they're both 23). They were WASTED. He could barely walk on his own...he was leaning on me, trying to pee everywhere in public, it was terrible. We walked around, went to a party for about 20 minutes and I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't hold him up!! So we went back to where their cars were (they drove separately). My girl friend who I was with drove me, so she was my ride. There's no way I could leave with her knowing the man I still love will probably get in his car and try to drive home drunk if I leave. So she left and I stayed with them in his roommate's car (it's about 2 am)...ALL NIGHT LONG. I'm trying to tell my ex that we will go to his car and i'll drive it back to his house...it was like talking to a brick wall he was so drunk. He's halfway in the car, leaning over, not responding to anything I say (except for shaking his head "no") At this point, I'm just frustrated. I should have left with my friend so I could go home! But I still love him, and I couldn't just leave him there because I was scared. So I stayed in the car with them all night, both of them got sick...I helped them. I ran to the convenience store down the street and got them both water bottles......I don't understand why I'm so nice to someone who doesn't care anymore. I got no sleep listening to the two of them moan and puke all night. It was horrible. In the morning he still wasn't feeling well so I drove us back to my house (it's now 8 am) We got into my bed and went to sleep for a few hours. Then, I woke up before him and made him breakfast. At this point, he was alive and talking again. We talked...watched a movie and cuddled until i had to go to work. I haven't seen him since May! And I've been wanting to see him all summer and it just hasn't happened until now and I'm not satisfied at all. I was hoping when I saw him, I'd be able to talk to him about how I feel but it just didn't seem like a good time, and I always get nervous when it comes to things like that. That day while I was at work we were texting, everything was fine...and then he just stopped responding. I went to a frat party last night with one of his really good friends and he drunkenly called my ex but he didn't answer. Then he got a text from my ex saying he's at the movies. He's obviously not there alone =/ Should I say something to him? I feel like it's a lost cause at this point, but I'm so frustrated that I went out of my way and took care of him when he needed someone =( It really brings me to tears.
KathyM Posted September 4, 2011 Posted September 4, 2011 Sounds like he's not boyfriend material. You were nice to take care of him, and I'm certainly glad you didn't allow him to try to drive home drunk. He might have killed himself or somebody else. But now it's time to let him go. He doesn't appreciate what he had with you. He's too immature to appreciate it.
Author justagirrl Posted September 4, 2011 Author Posted September 4, 2011 It's just so upsetting, I still love him and I get treated this way. I don't know how to let go
KathyM Posted September 4, 2011 Posted September 4, 2011 It's just so upsetting, I still love him and I get treated this way. I don't know how to let go You let go by focusing on yourself and improving your life, and keeping yourself open to finding relationships with other people, not him.
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