dumpedandsore Posted September 3, 2011 Posted September 3, 2011 (edited) these few days, ive been feeling very tired..mentally and physically drained... sleep alot..cant do much work ok, abt my this persistent trouble with how i look or appear to the opposite sex, which resulted in me always being rejected or used/abused as a temporary gf/fallback girl I have taken measures to improve my looks, but still im getting criticism of my looks and turned away completely and instantly by guys. Yet, on the other hand, my female friends and a few male colleague, said im reasonably attractive. Then, i dont know why im always instantly rejected by guys on the basis of looks after seeing me in person. Im very tired about this problem...how do i reconcile? 2nd question is: i still long for love, but after 7 years of non-stop rejection or being dumped, i have no self-esteem left. every guy (even those who just met me) just criticised, walked over me or hurted me in one way or another. I feel like garbage, like a loser, a scarecrow..a reject (like those guys will continue to laugh at me..or guys will throw eggs at me) being looked down upon by those guys who are proud of other girls... I sometimes scared of knocking into them in public places, and they give me the dirty look and attitude, while walking with their gf/partners.. what should i do? I just dont wanna go out looking for love anymore..im totally wounded Edited September 3, 2011 by dumpedandsore
Author dumpedandsore Posted September 3, 2011 Author Posted September 3, 2011 these few days, ive been feeling very tired..mentally and physically drained... sleep alot..cant do much work ok, abt my this persistent trouble with how i look or appear to the opposite sex, which resulted in me always being rejected or used/abused as a temporary gf/fallback girl I have taken measures to improve my looks, but still im getting criticism of my looks and turned away completely and instantly by guys. Yet, on the other hand, my female friends and a few male colleague, said im reasonably attractive. Then, i dont know why im always instantly rejected by guys on the basis of looks after seeing me in person. Im very tired about this problem...how do i reconcile? 2nd question is: i still long for love, but after 7 years of non-stop rejection or being dumped, i have no self-esteem left. every guy (even those who just met me) just criticised, walked over me or hurted me in one way or another. I feel like garbage, like a loser, a scarecrow..a reject (like those guys will continue to laugh at me..or guys will throw eggs at me) being looked down upon by those guys who are proud of other girls... I sometimes scared of knocking into them in public places, and they give me the dirty look and attitude, while walking with their gf/partners.. what should i do? I just dont wanna go out looking for love anymore..im totally wounded its like a battery level. Over the past 7 years, i went from 100% (full battery) level to a mere 30% then i recharge it (stand up again after falling), it went up to 40% and now..im running on the reserve (-20%) im so depressed, i dont wannna go out, work, run arrears, or do anything.. just feel like sleeping...i really have no energy and mood for anything..not to mention trying to date again..i have been trying for so long..i have no more motivation and optimism left in me to stand up again...i have stand up and moved on for so many times (i lost count) for over the past 7 years.. then i just dont dare contemplate the thought of me finding love..and getting wounded again. I cant take it anymore
Kendal Pierce Posted September 3, 2011 Posted September 3, 2011 Why are you in such a hurry to find that special person to love you, in spite and despite of whatever there may be. I mean, you are so pushing yourself to finding the right person for you. This may not be the best time for you to find him yet, remember that everything has its own time. In the meantime, get up and fix yourself up. You need to keep moving. Do yourself a favor, learn something new and productive. Or try to focus on something different that you have not done before like wall climbing or bungee jumping, and stop wallowing into your frustration. It will just make you look older, stressed and haggard. When the right one comes along, you wouldn't want to be in that state, right?
Author dumpedandsore Posted September 4, 2011 Author Posted September 4, 2011 Why are you in such a hurry to find that special person to love you, in spite and despite of whatever there may be. I mean, you are so pushing yourself to finding the right person for you. This may not be the best time for you to find him yet, remember that everything has its own time. In the meantime, get up and fix yourself up. You need to keep moving. Do yourself a favor, learn something new and productive. Or try to focus on something different that you have not done before like wall climbing or bungee jumping, and stop wallowing into your frustration. It will just make you look older, stressed and haggard. When the right one comes along, you wouldn't want to be in that state, right? I have been searching for a suitable partner/bf for 7 years while others took like less than a month to move from partners to partners. All i want is a longlasting meaningful, quality relationship, but i never have it. It either end in hi-bye meet-ups, or short casual hook-ups when im dumped suddenly and adruptly as if they can never ever like/love me. I dont know, today went on a mini meet-up. I feel totally devestated and disappointed.. I walked about alone..i reckoned..is this my destiny to be single, alone and rejected? I have been living this for the past 7 years.. why cant i be in a rs like everyone? im very tired of this, tired of my life.. sometimes it makes me think harder of death
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