Melena Posted September 2, 2011 Posted September 2, 2011 Hello all, I'm 19 years of age. I am just about to start my second year of college. I don't really know where to start; I have found especially in the last year I have become more anxious and easily upset over small things. I stress over situations I can't fully control. Not as confident and I used to be ''Missus Super Happy''. I still can be just not on my own. I find it hard to enjoy time alone but I'm working on it. I have a boyfriend of nearly four years now. He is my best friend and were experiencing life together. We live togther during college. My mother is a recovering alcoholic who has relapsed alot. she is not the worst but certainly not the best. -Thats my background story- I love what I'm studying in college (Art). I just found the whole year i became very 'anxious'. I clung onto my boyfriend. I practically followed him around the appartment, never enjoyed being alone. Then I became terrified i was smothering him and was very aware of giving him space. I felt by doing art in college I had no other hobby, i'm not sporty. I got a bit better, I had great friends of course but I just didn't feel so confident anymore something was missing from me. I always was just happy under my boyfriends arm. God Bless him he is very good to me he put up with it all because he loves me and wants me to be happy. I just hope one day it doesn't get to much. During the summer being at home and boredom it kicked up again. I did get much better at being alone but I would get upset over things like when my boyfriend didn't come see me (we live like 2 miles away from eachother). Again afraid I would push him away. **I don't know what I'm looking for.I want to beat this myself I want to get back to old me myself. Although I'm fickle and lack willpower sometimes. I don't want to see a councellor not yet. I just want SOMEONE to talk to me here. To maybe analyis my situation, give advice or suggestions. I'm ONLY 19!! I should be enjoying life! every minute. I don't want to lose my boyfriend he is great. We are great, communication,love, friendship we have it all. I want to beat Anxiety myself....please help...anyone
tman666 Posted September 2, 2011 Posted September 2, 2011 Hello all, I'm 19 years of age. I am just about to start my second year of college. I don't really know where to start; I have found especially in the last year I have become more anxious and easily upset over small things. I stress over situations I can't fully control. Not as confident and I used to be ''Missus Super Happy''. I still can be just not on my own. I find it hard to enjoy time alone but I'm working on it. I have a boyfriend of nearly four years now. He is my best friend and were experiencing life together. We live togther during college. My mother is a recovering alcoholic who has relapsed alot. she is not the worst but certainly not the best. -Thats my background story- I love what I'm studying in college (Art). I just found the whole year i became very 'anxious'. I clung onto my boyfriend. I practically followed him around the appartment, never enjoyed being alone. Then I became terrified i was smothering him and was very aware of giving him space. I felt by doing art in college I had no other hobby, i'm not sporty. I got a bit better, I had great friends of course but I just didn't feel so confident anymore something was missing from me. I always was just happy under my boyfriends arm. God Bless him he is very good to me he put up with it all because he loves me and wants me to be happy. I just hope one day it doesn't get to much. During the summer being at home and boredom it kicked up again. I did get much better at being alone but I would get upset over things like when my boyfriend didn't come see me (we live like 2 miles away from eachother). Again afraid I would push him away. **I don't know what I'm looking for.I want to beat this myself I want to get back to old me myself. Although I'm fickle and lack willpower sometimes. I don't want to see a councellor not yet. I just want SOMEONE to talk to me here. To maybe analyis my situation, give advice or suggestions. I'm ONLY 19!! I should be enjoying life! every minute. I don't want to lose my boyfriend he is great. We are great, communication,love, friendship we have it all. I want to beat Anxiety myself....please help...anyone Even though you say you "aren't sporty", I have personally found great fulfillment pursing physical goals in the gym. I didn't grow up being a super athletic kid either; it's something I had to work hard on. Once I developed a passion, however, it snowballed into something that has not only given me some great opportunities that I never had before, but it's allowed me to learn much about myself. Sometimes, passions aren't apparent right away. I've found that certain things take time to develop. Continuing with the gym example, I didn't suddenly wake up one morning and decide I wanted to be a bodybuilder. I dabbled in the gym as a way to help myself cope with an unhealthy relationship. What started out as a temporary escape turned into a passion that I plan on being involved with for the rest of my life in one form or another. At college, you have more opportunities than ever to meet many different types of people and engage in many types of activities. I suggest looking into the various clubs on campus. You might find something wild that sounds like it'd be off the wall weird (and maybe it will be), but you could end up meeting tons of new people and gaining some great experiences. One thing I take exception to in your post is the idea that you should be enjoying every minute of every day. The valleys are a part of normal life, and are often crucial in giving a person the necessary kick in the butt to go after what makes you happy.
Author Melena Posted September 2, 2011 Author Posted September 2, 2011 One thing I take exception to in your post is the idea that you should be enjoying every minute of every day. The valleys are a part of normal life, and are often crucial in giving a person the necessary kick in the butt to go after what makes you happy. This is one thing that you said that i totally get. Right now in my life i definitely am feeling like I am in control more than ever. I remember giving out about wanting to be fitter or just tone up a bit and someone said to me well only you can make it happen!? slowly but surely I am getting there i do like exercise but i get so fickle I can never stick at one thing! i went through a skipping stage , then a running stage etc but nothing ever stuck. I do like the gym however. Even if i went once a week do you think it would make a difference? try and do my own thing myself then? So is it ok to feel like how i am that is just hopefully going to make me get up and do something about it, hopefully
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