dazed20 Posted September 2, 2011 Posted September 2, 2011 Hi guys, I realy love the way people express their feelings and get respected here in this forum. My story(trying to keep it short, couldnt shorten than this): I and my ex,both turning 21 now soon, we both go to the same college, have been in a 4 month relationship(after a good frienship for about 6 months) which was intense. We even made a talk about not looking far into the future(actually a fight) but then things resolved but both of us still ended up occasionally fore-seeing ourselves together in the future. Things were going great but there were fights and she did cry at times, not that i didnt get hurt too. Analysizing, most of them were because i wanted more from her and she took time for that, i reacted and then she reacted and well, misunderstanding. SHe broke up with me one month back(after coming out on a date just the one day before, after patching up on a fight where i had hurt her a lot but because i was going through one of my toughest times in life and showed my aggression only to her and not to anynone else), i literally brokedown in front of her, my friends had to come and actually take me away, i was totally immature. I then begged and pleaeded, asked friends to talk, even my cousin. She cried for a 1-2 days and was miserable too. She even told me i gave you enough chances and this is too late. I had never meant to hurt her. I really love her and need her back. I begged literally, tried contacting her again and again, took a break from college fr a week at my parents(who knew this too, crap!) and told her how this has affected me more than anything else in my life and i have to talk to you. SHe met me once but was very clear in her decision, which hurt me even more. She wanted to be friends earlier, but now after all the begging and trying to act cool as friends, she got pissed off(dont know why as she cried once saying i am her best friend, and now she needs time apart for frienship)she said she need atleast 2 month to even be friends. So, its like She started talking something simliar to the LC route for sometime. I am motivated more than anything by NC(havnig read this forum and the famous DNS post) after completely wasting my life for one month after the break up. Is it too late for NC now, I feel more positive than before after reading about what NC can do, but she kinda called dibs on LKC before and for friensdhip itself. SO, is my NC gonna have any effect on her. I know its about getting the best of me during NC, but shouldnt it also have an effect on her. I cannot releive from the guilt everyday than i was the one who majorly messed up the relationship, but not intentionally. Infact, after the break up never slept until i am extremely tired that i cant even stand. So is this NC now, still holds good? PLease help. Some motivation if possible. Also, my birthday and her birthday is coming up. I planned sooooooooooooo much for her bday but unfortunately things happened. Can i gift her a subtle bday present, its harldy 25 days from now. PLease help me out here, Thank you for you time.
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