WhoMI Posted August 30, 2011 Posted August 30, 2011 Flying out to meet ex on Sunday & staying for 2 days. The count down.... Tue Day 5 Woke up at 6am with thoughts of how I can be cool about the meeting. Force myself to go back to sleep. Woke up at 9:30 still thoughts are there. On my way to work my head telling me to just have a good time Sunday like meeting an old friend. 50% of me really want Sunday to come soon & 50% of me hopes it never comes b/c it'll probably be our last contact until we both move on with our lives. I chose to go so will take the consequences. I know most or all ppl will say don't go but it's a relationship that a value greatly & yes may be there will be no answers but i feel I need to see that he's moving on w/o me. Still need to sort out accommodations. Ex said last week he'll sort out the hotel thing and let me know later so I'm really tempted to txt him about it but know I should wait for him to contact me.
Author WhoMI Posted August 31, 2011 Author Posted August 31, 2011 Wed Day 4 Too busy at work so no space for thoughts of my ex & will be heading out for dinner with the girls tonight:-) feeling hungry already! I still feel the sadness & all but life continues on...
Author WhoMI Posted September 1, 2011 Author Posted September 1, 2011 Thur Day 3 Rainy & cloudy day so a bit gloomy:-( The thought of the day...the end is near! May be some of u can relate to this...meeting ex after our breakup means the end to the hopes. It's the time to face reality that I'm longer that special person to him. U know that "special" person who they treat u differently like txt u all the time even when they're not big on txting or share their feelings with u etc. My end will come in a few more days. I'm excited b/c I can meet him but dreading it b/c reality sucks. I know I will move on with life & all this will just be past memories. That's why it's sad.
Author WhoMI Posted September 2, 2011 Author Posted September 2, 2011 Friday Day 2 Stormy out so am on my couch having a nice cup of tea and just enjoying this quiet time. Not a lot of thoughts today. It's almost like my brain is tired of repeating the images over and over again. Hope everyone had a nice quiet "ME" time today even if it was just a little while.
durkadurka Posted September 2, 2011 Posted September 2, 2011 Have you made what you want out of this clear, because that is a big deal.
Author WhoMI Posted September 3, 2011 Author Posted September 3, 2011 Sat Day 1 Yesterday ex txt me and then we talked on the phone for about 20minutes. We haven't spoken for a month so had a lot to say but nothing about the break up. It was just fun casual conversation nothing emotional like that 1st week we broke up. Then I ended the call b/c I had to go to work. Don't really feel as anxious as the first couple of weeks after our break up. We will meet tomorrow morning and spend the whole day probably catching up on this past month. I'm more at peace now than a month ago but of course I still miss him and our relationship. Will go out tonight with friends and have a good time and tomorrow I'll just enjoy the day b/c i know whatever happens I can deal with it.
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