ConfusedT Posted August 28, 2011 Posted August 28, 2011 actually haven't even been counting anymore. the days all seem to blur together at this point. im still sad somedays, but then im ok. day in & day out. it sucks. i want him here, but i know i cant allow that. not that he wants to be here anyways. sigh. i miss him & my heart hurts, but i know its for the best. i just dont know where to go from here. i still feel lost, in love (maybe falling out), but im still not over it. im at this weird place and i dont even know how to describe my feelings. i dont know what stage/part of the process im in, but im so confused! i need to let go, but something inside of me is fighting to hold on, but there's nothing to hold onto... =(
lymtal1 Posted August 28, 2011 Posted August 28, 2011 confusedt, i can completely relate. some days i think i am in a better place and then i get thinking too much about her and i don't know where i am. i too am in this fog at times. driving down the road when i get to where i am going i realize that all i have been doing for that time was thinking about her, and oh so many different thoughts. i almost don't realize that i am driving and then get a little scared. i think we are in a situation that is quite normal though. i want to start forgetting but it is not happening. i know that we are not going to be together now or later but my mind won't let go of hope. even that small bit has me in this mindset. i don't know about you but i got this from her best friend: i'm not sure what is going to happen in the future. what that really means is we are not going to be together but i seem to be able to work some hope out of it. i am ready to move on but my heart and head are not in synch and i am really getting tired of it. we have to figure out how to let go. working way too hard but no luck yet.
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