k100danny Posted August 27, 2011 Posted August 27, 2011 so me and my girlfriend split up 1o days ago. we were so close friends before we got together and we werent together long but ive taken it really hard. it is hard because i dont have lots of really close friends and her being the person i spoke to most for 6 months before and during around relationship of 3 months i really didnt know what to do with myself. the break up was my fault really, we did argue and it was always me who started it, im quite anxious and insecure and it was making me a nervous wreck, i knew we werent right together but when she ended it via a text message and didnt speak to me until 2 days later i was quite hurt, i felt i didnt have real closure and so we text a lot discussing the relationship , well i text her and she replied. around 5 days after splitting up she text me in the morning and said i dont think we should have as much contact as i woke up this morning checking my phone for messages from you and it seems like we could slip back into a relationship even though it wasnt great for either of us. anyway we do keep texting again it was me but she was replying and we were being civilised. I did go over things a lot but as i say not seeing her and only getting to speak to her once on the phone breifly after breaking up i didnt feel i had closure. I have always been ncie but i can see how the constant going over things may annoy her, anyway 8 days after the break up there were a couple of texts exchanged basically she was on a night out and kept checking it at places via her iphone, i told her that i keep getting messages telling me where she is as notifications and she says come and see me. anyway i go and meet her outside of a bar and we chat, nothing about the relationship just friendly and when she asks if i would like to go for a drink with her and her friend i say no its ok. I finally felt like i had some closure and the feelings could never be the same but i knew that i could stay friends in the future. so i leave and set of home, she calls as soon as ive left and asks me again if id like to go with them for a drink, i say no but have a nice night ect, she calls again and again i say no. she calls one final time and says do i mind if she just comes to see me for a few minutes she is just around the corner, i ok and when i get to my front door she is there, she asks if she can have a hug so we hug and she says she still lves me, she says i know you dont love me anymore which i take as her trying to get me to say i did which i did. she appologises for coming and says she just missed me and she was trying to kiss me all thsi time, sniffing my clothes as she hugged me. we have a brief chat and she leaves to go with her friends, we didnt really say much about the relationship. Now my head was all over the place, i felt i had closure now i didnt think i did. we speak via text the next day and she says sorry i was drunk but it doesnt mean i didnt mean the things i say i just dont see us ever working out but seeing you made me see why i fell in love with you and i had to see you. so basically we go over things that day texting and we are still nice to each other and agree to meet for coffee around a week later. the next day i text to ask if we can move the day and the text wont send, hmmm she has changed her number. i send her a message on facebook saying i tried to text but it wont and has she some how blocked me, she replies with ive changed my number. i get quite angry and say i think it is uncalled for and she says its not because of you why would you assume this? i gave my number out to a guy i used to work with years ago on tuesday and i regretted it and he kept pestering me so i changed my number, i didnt tell you right away because it was nice to not have to go over things. we message back and forth then she says. We clearly cannot be friends so dont contact me, i just want to forget about you. i dot want you to have my number because i just want to move on. this came as a shock to me, i can see how going over things a lot would annoy her especially as it was mainly my fault we broke up and i wasnt happy anyway but this made me feel awful. I dont know if i believe her stpry of the number change but i do have a tiny reason to think it could possibly be true. so now i feel awful like a stalker when we were so close and less than 24 hours later we had been speaking fine. if she wanted me to just go away and forget me why would she just not reply to my messages, also not reply to me on facebook and block me, that way she never has to hear from me again? i feel bad because i dont want her back but knowing someone has done that to me and just wants rid of me hurts, i dont like to think that people dont like me and i really wanted us to be friends in the future. I sent her a message saying please dont reply and mentioned i was hurt by how it had ended after the things she said. i said i would never have a bad word to say about her to mutal friends ect and would never discuss private things after breaking up (her ex did this so i wanted to assure her) i said sorry for whatever i have done and if it has made her not like me and i wished her all the best ect now i am going no contact with her. I guess this is more a rant than a question but i just dont see how someone could turn like that? its made me feel worse than if she just said to me i think we should not speak for a few weeks or a month or wait for me to reply and maybe we can meet up or just casually be friendly again. we are bound to see each other at some point and i really didnt want it to end this way as i hate awkwardness.
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