phuongus Posted August 27, 2011 Posted August 27, 2011 (edited) recently i've notice a change in myself, not one of a physical change but more of an emotional one. I've become some-what emotion less? I'm asking my elf what is love and am i worth being loved? my whole life i've been in the background, as if i was a background character in my own play of life. My family never really treats me as a member, i feel like i'm just there i only serve a practical purpose(?) they might say i love you and things as such but i feel emotionally empty i really never did get much attention in my childhood, my sister was the better child albeit she is 23 while i am 16. I think i'm going through depression? I've also noticed that i don't care for this world any more, i'd rather live the world of what i read and watch it's like im not meant for this world. oh and another thing, i feel like i'm the omega in society. Omegas is a class in the hierarchy of wolves that is the lowest, treated badly and abused. i'm not abused my but people tend to dislike me. I guess all this time i've felt nothing nothing excites me, nothing makes me cry, nothing makes me happy, nothing makes me sad. i get a hollow feeling after i buy something that i wanted and i feel hollow after i realize, how did this make me happy? To the point though is do you think that i am emotionally dead inside? I do not see a future for myself with a partner in life i might as well live a life of solitude.... I also think that i might be a sociopath, i see other not as people but as insect that need to be disposed of? they annoy me, those people. the people who act cool, wanna be gangsters abg's all of them. i need some help... Edited August 27, 2011 by phuongus
FitChick Posted August 27, 2011 Posted August 27, 2011 Go to www(dot)recreateyourlife(dot)com. For some odd reason I've been told not to post a link. There is nothing to sell so I don't understand it, considering all the spam links on this forum. It's interactive so you can eliminate at least one free belief. You will feel a weight being lifted from your heart.
Author phuongus Posted August 28, 2011 Author Posted August 28, 2011 that website only broadened my view on the beliefs of my worth, how can i prove to myself that my existence has worth, i've only been alive for 16 years. i have not accomplished much with in that time all my accomplishments are over shadowed by my sister its as if im the uncared for middle child but only between the two
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