M2155 Posted August 26, 2011 Posted August 26, 2011 Today marks 2 weeks of NC. I feel like I've accepted things, I have no desire to explode or chase after him, I have forgiven (but not forgot) him for doing me wrong. I can't say I don't ever want him back yet, but I know if that were even a possibility, we need more time apart anyway for him to get his personal business in order (oh, and have a relationship with his new girl) and for me to find myself- I realize I lost it in the relationship. I don't ever want to repeat that mistake. This is my first weekend alone w/o friends since we parted ways. Today I went to the mall and one couple made me practically break down in tears because I used to have someone I could hold like that. It amazes me how I can feel "over it" but something gets me thinking back to the good times. Its hard too because my heart is thawing a little and I really do want to support his personal efforts with a little positive encouragement cause his new girl sounds kinda dramatic. Its probably something I didn't do a great job of when we were together. We've remained FB and Twitter contacts and I admit, I check but I've refrained from commenting- maybe in time. But don't worry, I'm not going to call;). When I think about it, I remember there is NOTHING I can say that wouldn't seem lame as hell. I love reading everyone's posts and comments on this forum. It's very supportive to know other people know how I feel. Let's go week 3!
Buttercup84 Posted August 26, 2011 Posted August 26, 2011 Congrats ! that is amazing.I am going to try this now too.Wish I was that strong. I know what you mean with seeing couples etc. I used to have that too . Sigh. I hope I get your strength soon too x
Author M2155 Posted August 27, 2011 Author Posted August 27, 2011 The Facebook thing is bad though, just heard about how much he is crazy thinking about his new girl (he left me for his ex). Since I know this already, I guess it shouldn't be shocking- more like confirmation since he never admitted getting back with her. If you suspect something it probably IS true. Maybe goal for next week is to hide his page and stop checking it, I don't want to block him, but maybe that's some unneccessary form of hanging on or keeping tabs:sick:. He sounds really into her and excited, never sounded that way with me:(, that part hurts. I know it's very fresh and maybe he had stronger feelings for her or whatever. I will always wonder if I was his 2-year rebound. But if anything guess it makes NC easier, cause I'd sound REALLY stupid trying to strike up a conversation if he is in new love. If he was not for me it was a hell of a lesson. Hope it means that God has someone better lined up for me.
solobeary Posted August 27, 2011 Posted August 27, 2011 Congrats!! I'm only on day 3 of NC, determined to make it to two weeks though (then a month, then a lot longer...) Facebook sucks. It sucked for me just reading a boring status update from him, so I blocked him before I could see anything like you are seeing. What's stopping you from blocking him?
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