GgirlBgirl Posted August 25, 2011 Posted August 25, 2011 It's day 3 since we talked about our relationship and broke up. We broke up after a 12 day break which was what he wanted and I gave him. I go between being completely okay and being a complete wreck. Right now I miss how he didn't judge my interests and even discussed them with me. I miss us and what could have been. It wasn't all roses, but the bad stuff we weathered and were stronger for it. I miss him. I actually told him when we broke up that he didn't deserve me and I'm sticking by that. I'm moving in a week so the triggers of being in my apt will be gone, but then it's the whole not having a boyfriend to help me with the heavy stuff. I decided in September that I am going to start a Bikram yoga 30 day challenge. Bikram really supported me during the break. The heat and humidity are like a metaphor for my emotions that seem to be overwhelming, then I survive and am stronger after. I know this is a blessing. During our relationship, we both had let ourselves go and I'm focusing on myself and my health and feeling good. I will probably be posting a lot hopefully so I won't send a weepy email to the ex. I think someday we could be friends, but right now, it's all too raw and I need to focus on going forward.
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