ConfusedT Posted August 25, 2011 Posted August 25, 2011 have to ramble to someone and im tired of putting all my baggage on my friends, so LS here i am again, everyday trying to work through this process with you all!!! well there went my happy day of yesterday. since his mother and i had a crying session yesterday, i have been completely incapable of getting the whole situation off my mind. I guess her apologizing for her son and telling me how im the only person that ever tried to really help him made me hurt more than i initially was, bc i genuinely loved this man and wanted us to have something together ya know? sighs. i cant focus AGAIN, but hey im eating still and still havent broke NC. i honestly dont even know how long its been, i stopped counting the days, its just kinda a blur to me! an emotional rollercoaster blur. haha answers would be amazing, but I KNOW I am not going to get any! I know there are going to be good days and bad days. bad days will inevitably make me stronger, but i hate these feelings. BUT the only reason I have even been able to stick to NC is bc of LS & all this support. I swear you all are awesome!!!! Thank you so much, it has been rough, but after every dark night, there is a brighter day awaiting. ill be there one day & so will all my other heartbroken LS friends!!
smudge21 Posted August 25, 2011 Posted August 25, 2011 You do right to simply accept that there will always be bad days amongst the good, but then, eventually, they will go and that will be the end of it. I hate them though - they seem to turn up just when I'm feeling great. Had one earlier this week after I'd had a great weekend too. Just a simply bit of information about her and I felt low again. Nothing I can do to prevent it (apart from lock myself in a box) so just have to accept what will happen will happen.
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