Dblock10 Posted August 23, 2011 Posted August 23, 2011 (edited) I have accepted I need to let her go. If she wanted to have stayed with me whilst travelling for 6 months she would have let it be known by now. after all i did go and see her in person/say my thoughts about the whole thing, told her i didnt want it to come between us, but ultimately it was goodbye... for now. 17 days of no contact, not hearing nothing from her, not a peep. and same from me. not tried to communicate to her once. from what i can gather, the best thing I can do is move on, continue nc and go about my own life and hope it gets better, no begging, no pleading. nothing. anything i do now in terms of contact would push her away even more. i can take comfort in knowing i was a gentleman on our last meeting, i was caring and she knew i wanted to be with her. I know 6 months is a long time in some respects. but.. "if" i still feel the same way about her and haven't been enjoying another girls company quite the same then i guess i should try and get her back. as far as I know she isn't seeing anyone new, but i'm pretty sure travelling she will be living it up as a single 21 y/o girl. If her reasons for wanting to be free and enjoy a stress relationship free experience then there should be no reason she wouldn't want to at least meet me once back and see what happens as she would have seen the world, experienced new people (even though shes been with a fair few already). however if she doesnt want to be in a relationship and enjoys the care free life style, casual sex with whom ever, then there is no way she will want to "settle" so to speak. however. i know 6 months is 6 months. she would have slept with other people on her travels, she is highly sex driven and doesn't know her own limits when it comes to alcohol. bad combination, its a shame she is so sweet and innocent in her attitude. easy. on the other hand i feel that the time is going to fly by and before i know it she will be back... scary thought. either way, once she returns, depending on whats what, i would very much like to see her, but i also know in my mind a lot would have happened in this time, and my "perfect image of her" would be fairly tarnished, and maybe to the point where i wouldn't want her back if she wanted to come back :S, But if for some miracle she hasn't slept with anyone during her trip and she realised that I am her guy.. then great! but i think i have more chance becoming a female myself. but again only time will tell if she does want to meet etc, no body knows the future now. it is in fate's hands. i said and done all i could. initially i regret saying things to her the way i did, but she would have come to those conclusions herself in her own way sooner or later. i dont know wether to txt her goodbye the day before she leaves. or what. do i wish her happy birthday when it is her birthday? and happy new year etc etc? I assume doing so is ok..? Edited August 23, 2011 by Dblock10
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