LoveandSuch Posted August 22, 2011 Posted August 22, 2011 I have a problem of keeping all my pain and problems to myself. That is most likely why I am here, an outlet. At this point in my life I keep mostly to myself. I have cut myself off from many, who notice but are not asking too much and are really busy in their own lives, thank god, then to really get into mine too much. I do not reach out to others, I have always felt deep down, no one cares, so it is best to keep all your emotions, problems, and pain inside. My problem, lately, is I cannot sleep. I have had to miss work committments because of it and it is getting out of hand. I do not know the exact hours of sleep in a 4 week span, but it cannot be more than 24-36 hours in total. Sleeping pills do not help and I will end up sleeping, but not after staying up on them way too late, then you have 1-3 hour sleep with the crash burn of pills...makes it worse. I get anxious every night and worry all day knowing I will not be able to sleep. The mix of practically no sleep on top of keeping all inside, is overwhelming, and makes me just want to crawl up in a ball and die somewhere. Has anyone else been through this? What helped?
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Mangomonkey Posted August 22, 2011 Posted August 22, 2011 I'm the same way. Sometimes it do me good and sometimes it doesn't. I'll be fine until i get involved with other people. Either romantically or just friendship. People notice but don't ask questions which I appreciate. And the people who do i quickly get rid of. With that said I'll tell you what someone told me. There is nothing wrong with having feelings. Now i dont know if this relates to you at all. If it dont then oh well. If it does. You might not understand the meaning of it right away. But its something to remember. but I'm not going to get carried away. As for your sleeping problem. I say try to find a positive outlet somewhere in life. Like a hobby. Make friends. Becoming more active. If your able to keep a positive attitude with positive activities and people. It helps.
Author LoveandSuch Posted August 22, 2011 Author Posted August 22, 2011 Now having the stupidest feeling, why the the hell am I writing this crap on a dating message forum? Really now, it is that bad...lol. I honestly do not feel like writing in a forum for the down in the dumps and depressed. Yes, great idea, go hang with a bunch of other depressed souls so you can all just sit and be depressed together, making things worse!
Author LoveandSuch Posted August 22, 2011 Author Posted August 22, 2011 I'm the same way. Sometimes it do me good and sometimes it doesn't. I'll be fine until i get involved with other people. Either romantically or just friendship. People notice but don't ask questions which I appreciate. And the people who do i quickly get rid of. With that said I'll tell you what someone told me. There is nothing wrong with having feelings. Now i dont know if this relates to you at all. If it dont then oh well. If it does. You might not understand the meaning of it right away. But its something to remember. but I'm not going to get carried away. As for your sleeping problem. I say try to find a positive outlet somewhere in life. Like a hobby. Make friends. Becoming more active. If your able to keep a positive attitude with positive activities and people. It helps. That is a problem too, I do have committments and hobbies, some very important, but I have been having to x them, because I cannot sleep, then functioning is basically next to zero. I have had so much I have needed to do for weeks, for days, today, and I have absolutely no will do do them, even though I have to. It is becoming a big problem. Even just getting into the shower seems like a huge milestone for me.
Mangomonkey Posted August 22, 2011 Posted August 22, 2011 What you need is some motivation. Get a new spark in your drive to push you through the day. But from what your telling me it seems your biggest issue is just sleep. Without it your honestly just wearing your body out completely. If you can i suggest you just take a few days to yourself. Stay in bed. Read a book or just watch T.V. Just to relax. And it does no one any good feeling stupid or depressed over yourself. Find a way to laugh it off. even if you can't. Or better yet just read through half of the stories in the forum. Some of the things people say here are pretty good but its might be hard to find the right threads. There are other threads with subjects exactly like this. Identical actually. If i could find them and link them for you i would. But if you come across one of them. The advice given is golden.
Professor X Posted August 22, 2011 Posted August 22, 2011 I have a problem of keeping all my pain and problems to myself. That is most likely why I am here, an outlet. At this point in my life I keep mostly to myself. I have cut myself off from many, who notice but are not asking too much and are really busy in their own lives, thank god, then to really get into mine too much. I do not reach out to others, I have always felt deep down, no one cares, so it is best to keep all your emotions, problems, and pain inside. My problem, lately, is I cannot sleep. I have had to miss work committments because of it and it is getting out of hand. I do not know the exact hours of sleep in a 4 week span, but it cannot be more than 24-36 hours in total. Sleeping pills do not help and I will end up sleeping, but not after staying up on them way too late, then you have 1-3 hour sleep with the crash burn of pills...makes it worse. I get anxious every night and worry all day knowing I will not be able to sleep. The mix of practically no sleep on top of keeping all inside, is overwhelming, and makes me just want to crawl up in a ball and die somewhere. Has anyone else been through this? What helped? Maybe it is time you do find someone you can talk to; That's what helped me. I'm sure there are people who DO care (unlike what you've stated) - it's not that uncommon. As for the sleeping, try and wear yourself down during the day, so you will be extremely tired by night time - that's what worked for me.
Author LoveandSuch Posted August 23, 2011 Author Posted August 23, 2011 Maybe it is time you do find someone you can talk to; That's what helped me. I'm sure there are people who DO care (unlike what you've stated) - it's not that uncommon. As for the sleeping, try and wear yourself down during the day, so you will be extremely tired by night time - that's what worked for me. People do not care, I know this. Anyone I have known has only cared for themselves. It shows. I would not share with them, me. I would just rather keep it inside. I would rather get positive attention than attention because of my problems. I have tried everything for sleep, even when I am exhausted, even after really long work day...when 3-4 rolls around and my eyes are forcing them selves shut, the rims will not stay together, like opposite forces. Its wierd.
Author LoveandSuch Posted August 23, 2011 Author Posted August 23, 2011 I know exactly how that feels. When I am with friends I feel like I should be pleasant and happy. In my head I feel like why should I burden someone else with my problems, they have their own they don't want to hear about mine. I don't want to make them feel sad with my crap and they don't want to hear about my problems. Exactly how I am. I have some close friends, but they live so darn far, and when we do get the chance to catch up, the last thing I want to bring up is problems. Funny though, I had an acquaintance once, that I thought I felt comfortable with enough at that time to pop a little outta my shell, and mentioned some things that were going on, and their response was, "Hey, we all got our problems, do not look to me to be your savoir," Ouch! to say the least. I think that cemented the fact to keep everything to yourself, no matter what it is, how little or how big. I believe people are programmed to not give a **** how they treat others. Like I did mention, there are cool friends that I could, but with the distance and not speaking all the time, it just does not feel right to do it.
Professor X Posted August 23, 2011 Posted August 23, 2011 People do not care, I know this. Anyone I have known has only cared for themselves. It shows. I would not share with them, me. I would just rather keep it inside. I would rather get positive attention than attention because of my problems. I have tried everything for sleep, even when I am exhausted, even after really long work day...when 3-4 rolls around and my eyes are forcing them selves shut, the rims will not stay together, like opposite forces. Its wierd. People do care; I guess you were just unlucky for meeting those who don't. And as for the sleeping.. I can you that what I also do from time to time is keep myself up for 24-26 hours so that the next day, when it's evening, I can sleep for 10 hours straight - waking up all new and with a good sleeping cycles. If you can, you should try it (unless you need to drive during those 24h, than I would advice against). Just keep it together for a bit longer, time will do what it does best and sooner than you think you will feel much better with yourself. Cheer up LoveandSuch, things will get better! :)
FitChick Posted August 23, 2011 Posted August 23, 2011 You're tired because you don't want to acknowledge the negative beliefs you have carried with you since childhood when they were created. It's like trying to keep a beach ball submerged underwater. It keeps popping up. The Lefkoe Method pops that beach ball of beliefs and you will suddenly have loads of energy.
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