nonstopzx Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 Me and this girl have been friends for about a year now. We hooked up a few times but she decided that she couldn't handle a relationship so we remained friends. I still had deep feelings for this girl but it seems like she just lost all interest in me so fast (Boyfriend wise). We remained friends for a few months and then hooked up once more at my house. The next day she told me it was a mistake and that she "wanted to but didn't want to" hook up that night. I immediately went NC and after a few days she begged for me back. Me being an idiot, gave in and we remained friends for a few more months. 2 months ago I hung out with her (while I STILL have feelings for her). I realized it was oh so hard to be friends with someone I had such strong feelings for when she didn't feel the same way. She was getting everything she wanted out of the friendship but I was just stuck, there just as a friend. She called me one of her best friends and I feel the same. The next day I told her that I needed space because I still like her alot and it was awful listening to her constantly talk about other guys she likes. I'm nothing like them. So after a month of NC we started talking again because she said she missed talking to me about things and I did aswell. I fell into the trap once again. We started to become good friends but then again, I still have feelings for her. So yesterday we hung out (She moved to college about 2 hours away). We always have fun together but we argued more than usual about stupid pointless things. I was getting the feeling this friendship just wasn't right. And she keeps telling me about names she wants her child to have and they just happen to be names associated with the people she likes. I feel as if she keeps me around just for attention and to tell her love stories to. I dont wan't that. I want her. Before I headed home, I confronted her and told her we couldn't do this anymore and it had to stop. I'm tired of hearing about how all these guys are great and nothing like me (Shes telling me this and she knows I like her still). We are like best friends but its not worth it if everytime we hang out I just keep waiting for her to magically like me while I suffer through her guy fantasies. I've never felt this close to a girl in my life. The decision to break ties with her for the final time was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I Don't want to lose her but I had to, for me.. Please tell me I made the right decision?
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