BlindRage Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 So it's official. I responded to my exes e-mail. She after the previous e-mail I wrote her (she randomly had contacted.. asking how I was and I just said fine. Thanks. and so after she send me a few paragraphs apologizing.) to her apology I dumbly replied! I said, "if you're serious about your apology here's my number (xxx) xxx-xxxx. I don't accept text apologies, hope you understand." She replied with. basically saying yea and that she'd call today but no call so far. Obviously she was probably having an argument with her partner and wanted attention. Which I dumbly gave her because I felt I deserved an apology. Now I'm feeling like an utter idiot.
Author BlindRage Posted August 21, 2011 Author Posted August 21, 2011 (edited) I don't even know what to think anymore. She completely screwed me, yet again. This women makes me want to punch a wall. I was doing fine without her. Then, she had to tempt me, with her apology. Now I'm the one feeling like a moron. Edited August 21, 2011 by BlindRage
reimeivn Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 Hey it happens. I feel that way about my ex too, even without breadcrumbs. He was the one that made me behave the way I did, yet he still made me feel like a bad person because of that. I felt jealous that he hangs out with people and that he didnt invite me and that he would secretly do that behind my back. But bottom line, he was not happy when he was with me, and he never did make me happy hanging out together as he looked when he was with them. So its not my fault that happened. My mom said this: you love him, and he is supposed to be yours, why wouldnt you feel that way? So chill out. You just do what you felt like doing, and who cares how you look like, just keep this in mind next time. She left you, she has lost you. Dont give yourself to her anymore, even just the breadcrumbs
Nohbody Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 I admire you for your perseverance. It is obvious you haven't given up on her, and you believe she might still be the person you think she can be. But if she fails to meet your expectations, that's really her problem - not yours. Find someone who will.
Author BlindRage Posted August 21, 2011 Author Posted August 21, 2011 I gave up on her. I felt that what she did to me was awful. She acknowledged it and I feel too prideful to accept a written apology (she had dumped me through text). I feel like a joke now.All I can tell myself is.. 'Blindrage.. (not my real name by the way), you did it again. It's going to be another lousy, painful year.'
Nohbody Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 Just watch out for self fulfilling prophecies, old bean. It's been a bad summer for most of us. Let's see if we can't make a go at a better year.
Queen of Hearts 10 Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 The year is not over you may find your little gardener snake to love. She will be very pretty green and red !! Wow ! I want to say goodbye to our EX's !!! Goodbye to their lack of appreciation of good people ! Goodbye to their lack of sensitivity. I want to be set Free of this empty dream ! Pick some new cards from the deck !
Author BlindRage Posted August 21, 2011 Author Posted August 21, 2011 (edited) I've been fooled too many times by the same person. I have to take this cold, nasty flavor of hurt, and just swallow it. I've done it before so I know I can surpass this. I dont know. I feel that now it'll be even more difficult to trust anyone. I think I should also change my number now too. Thats the dilemma. I can't believe I felt for this.... Edited August 21, 2011 by BlindRage
Queen of Hearts 10 Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 I'm sorry ! You will learn to trust someone new that will show you a new way of trusting. Each person is different. You will be cautious next time. Don't let this ruin you ! It becomes the baggage we carry onto the next love ! Good luck !
Author BlindRage Posted August 21, 2011 Author Posted August 21, 2011 (edited) It's hard not to let it defile my future relationships. I actually just e-mailed her my final goodbye telling her that I wish her the best. And that I've been fine and happy, and never worry of me. I hope that this time around it'll be easier for me but I'm prepared for a depressing year again lol. It is what it is. Life is great no matter what Edited August 21, 2011 by BlindRage
coolheadal Posted August 21, 2011 Posted August 21, 2011 You're not alone I too face this what you face. I am not happy about it but I rather be free to live my own life then to be upset knowing that I was with a cheater, a selfish women and etc.. Just stay away from me. I had taken myself out of her house and drove 1,400 miles away from her. But even doing so she can text me and call me up for things she needs and really don't wan to chat with me nor do I want too. Just BS life with her! She has sold all my stuff but I can't feel bad about that I can replace them, just can't replace the years I was with her now what I wanted won't happen. I have to start all over again.. Real pain now to even think about this...
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