Went to see my ex, but I only have deep feelings for her when she's out of sight.

[proteinshake25]

I went to see my ex at work. She agreed to talk for a bit. I hadnt seen her in 5 months, I left her 7 months ago. She looked unrecognizable to me, for some reason. It felt very awkward talking to her, like all the things I had planned on telling her werent coming out the way I pictured. She told me she wanted to marry her current bf, when I asked if she did. I told her I will always love her, regardless of what happens. She had to go, and when I left, I felt like it wasnt a big deal that I couldnt have her, like I was thinking that maybe now my attraction had died off, and I really didnt care anymore. Later that day, I start remembering how much I loved her, and all her qualities. I think about how passionate it was when we made love,etc. Just how when I truly was affectionate to her, she recieved every ounce of love and affection in me. It's like all the feelings re-emerge, but only when she's not in sight. Just wondering what you guys would think of this?, it's like the opposite of the quote "out of sight out of mind"

[betterdeal]

You love the good memories and the imaginary her in your head. The real her, is not the same as what's in your head.

[Chi townD]

sorry dude, but if you weren't completely over her, you should have never have saw her. knocks you back a few pegs on the healing process.

[proteinshake25]

better deal, thats what I was thinking, but then I thought it's also because we both had high anxiety levels and were uncomfortable. Probably made her less attractive in my eyes, but I still love her