when will i be happy?

[alexa137]

ive been sad and depressed for years and just wonder when will i be happy?

my life sucks,i mean really sucks!

ive been unemployed for 2 yrs, cant find a good man, im broke, just had another bad breakup and my friends are really too busy to hang out.

I honestly dont have nothing positive in my life. I feel worthless and not good enough. I dont have much desire to do anything, but sleep eat and be on the internet.I can really go anywhere but the grocery store once a week because no money. I see my friend maybe once a week, but shes so busy with a baby and 3 kids and sports and job etc,, that we dont go out and have fun. and my other good friends work alot and lives out of town,

The town i live in is small, and I dont associate with too many people just because everybody knows everybody and is in your business etc.

I constantly have a headache because im so stressed and from crying and wondering if im being punished. I pray every night that God will give me something good soon. I will be 41 in october and I feel like a failure.

I dont know what to do anymore, Im going crazy

[D-Lish]

I have been where you are at more than once in my life and I'm the same age as you. I remember rare times in my life where I was ever truly happy.

 

I think it has a lot to do with being alone. I often feel lonely and that contributes to my depression.

 

Have you ever spoken to someone about your depression.

[alexa137]

yes the biggest burden is being alone, which i have been for most of my adult life, only been in 2 relationships 1989-1991 and then 2006-2007

i did see a counselor after the last breakup because i was devastated! i was pregnant and his 16 yr other gf was pregnant too! of course with stress i had a miscarriage and then we broke up

im trying not to go the counselor way again because it doesnt really help, i mean they cant give you too much advice and all i do is cry, because i am a very emotional person. so why waste my time gas and money to talk to someone and cry when i can just talk to my friends or on here for free and cry anyways

my family doctor says i have severe depression and i told her to give me a month before prescribing me any meds or making any mental health appts.

[D-Lish]

I just went back on meds after recently (like you) having a miscarriage and then being dumped right after. That was five months ago and my depression and anxiety became so severe that I needed to do something about it.

 

I've been on them for a few weeks but I don't feel any different yet.

 

If you're feeling really bad, there is no shame in getting back on meds, and since they take up to 6 weeks to work, maybe waiting a month is too long?

[alexa137]

no i really didnt want to because my dr finally put me on weight loss meds, phetermine, after trying for years to lose weight, and im afriad they might mess things up