ConfusedT Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 had to post here before i text him and make a huge mistake! rant & rave here instead of to my poor friends!! broke up for approx a month, day 5 NC (not that he would even notice in the first place). i dont really know what happened, but last night i started to miss him SO MUCH. i was out with my girlfriends and just sat at a table. i wanted to start crying my eyes out, but i held back trying to look strong. came home cried, woke up cried. i have NEVER been through this before! it feels like it is slowly eating away at me. i have stayed strong though and havent called/texted him at all. im just so disappointed in myself still. he cheated, he lied, he betrayed me, he left me for another woman, but im the one waddling in my own sorrow, struggling to make it through the day, im the one who is crying trying to be strong when all i wann do is break down, im the one that begged him to leave her and be with me, to just love me =( everyone thinks im taking it SO well, when in reality, i feel broken beyond repair, i am bawling my eyes out just typing this out. never knew love (or what i thought it was) could hurt so much. i just want to feel whole again & be genuinely happy, like i used to be. ahhh, heres to day 5!!! hope everyone else is gettin easier, bc it sure hurts LIKE HELL to me right now =(
WindWhisperer Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 GOOD JOB FOR coming here and not messaging him. He left you for another woman so he does not deserve a message from you. I am so so sorry Break up pain is horrible and unbearable especially when they leave you for someone else. all you can do is try distract yourself and when you are weak come here. xxxxxx
Nohbody Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 Stay strong! Believe it or not, you ARE taking this well. The pain you are feeling is immense and you are being very brave. Remind yourself that nothing you say will change what has happened. Post here, or write in a journal. Do something to take your mind off of it - go exercise! Anything you can do, do. You will make it through this.
NursingGirl Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 I've been through quite a few breakups in my life and it is true that it seems like you will never get through them! But you do. And you love again. I've had some that were worse than others. I had one that I did stupid things and kept calling and texting and sending cards and things when he obviously didn't want me to. That's embarrassing to even think about it today but it WAS a marriage. He got engaged and married so fast and didn't seem to care AT ALL about how I felt. Wow. He was the love of my life. I have loved since then. I have had two breakups since then. Both of them were SOOOOOOOOOOO much easier than the one where I embarrassed myself 1/2 to death, lol. Now, I have learned that almost all breakups happened for a good reason and that most are never reconciled. If someone wants you back, it will be unmistakeable and will involve a resolution of the previous reason. Don't contact him. We are so much more attractive and have so much more self respect when we are standing upright and not on our knees begging or holding onto their ankles being drug through the mud. NO CONTACT!!! He doesn't deserve you!!! Cheating is a horrible horrible betrayal.:-(
Lost on Jerseyshore Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 I am also having a very hard day. Here it is almost 3pm and I have been crying since the moment I woke up early this am. I have had my daughters and mothers support today and it helped for a little while but in a weak moment I called him just to hear his voice. He just moved out yesterday. I am not sure how he really took it but he said it was ok that I called, he told me to get busy and everyday will be easier. Sheesh thanks a lot... I am wishing that I didnt call... Try not to do it cause you might feel worse after, like I do...
Author ConfusedT Posted August 14, 2011 Author Posted August 14, 2011 Thank you Wind&Noh for responding! it feels good to know that others have been there and went through the same thing that i am TRYING to get through!! Nursing: although i didn't physically go on my knees, emotionally, just as you, i begged, called, texted, lost allll my dignity for a man who betrayed me. LOST: it's ok. i've broken NC over and over again. he was living with me too and then he just up and took all of his things out one day. =/ NC WILL WORK FOR ME & U, but gotta do it for the right reasons, not the "oh my ex will miss me". forget them, if they walked away, just gotta let them keep walking! =( i kno how hard it is to do that though *with tears =)
Misar7 Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 I am right there with you. I have been not eating or sleeping in a week and I did something really stupid and contacted him last night after a week of NC and he was rude then ignored me and was busy with his other girl I am 34 she is 23 which makes it worse..keep in mind that every time you contact him your heart is just going to get hurt more. Don't give them the chance to be rude and a jerk to you! I really learned my lesson last night..I cried so hard I was so hurt to think this man could do this to me and then act as if he has the right to be this mean and rude to me!! So we can do this ok let's not give them the chance to keep hurting us! NC!!!! We can do it!!
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