SCG_Sasa1111 Posted August 13, 2011 Posted August 13, 2011 Ex's email to me back in May 2010. When I left for 17 days to go visit my family in my native country. We were together for 4.5 years when it ended. she left me for her friend from her university program who I met in 2008. Never thought he was a threat, never once thought she would do what she did; but here we are. We got together when we were 15, high-school sweet hearts, went through everything together it ended when we were both 20. She sends me this email citing how she misses me, can't sleep without me and all this stuff when only a week later when I came back she was all cold and distant and this is when she started really pulling away until in september when I couldn't take it anymore I broke up with her. It got to the point where she didn't know what to do so it was really complicated till beginning of november where I came to her place at night after my intermural soccer game to find the guy there with her...... point is she left me for him after he came into the picture when i was gone for 15 days HOW DOES SOMEONE DO THAT AFTER READING THIS EMAIL can someone please explain that??? ITS LIKE TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hi baby... I know you don't have access to internet but if you do I know you'll check your email. I wanted to let you know that I miss you....I duno if I can hold on any longer. I cry myself to bed every night..it's the 3rd day since you've left and I haven't eaten anything. I was with your mom yesterday when we called you the whole day and she gave me lots of food but I didn't eat a single thing. I dont have an appetite at all. I checked myself on the scale I only weigh 100 pounds now...I'm scared. After we talked to you on the fone I stayed at your place and then i went shopping with your mom and sister. after that they wanted me to go to your grandmas house so i did. I went there and your grandma gave me food but i didnt eat either and it was already 10 pm. She played a videotape of you when you were younger...i watched it and started to cry so she had to turn the tape off... I really don't know how much longer I can do this. I realize that my life is not worth living when you're not around. I cant even write an email to you without crying. Every night i look at your pictures i smell my blanket and all i can think of is you. Your cousins boyfriend put the pictures of you up...looks like a lot of random girls are liking the pictures. I'm guessing you're making a lot of girl friends over there? I look at your pictures every hour cause theyre the most recent pictures of you.. but at the same time it makes me cry and i'm sad, angry and hurt cause I'm in none of the pictures. It hurts me even more to know that you're having fun without me...you say you miss me and stuff but you're always around people and you're always going somewhere so you 4get about me. For me on the other hand I'm all alone... I'm worried that when you'll come back you won't feel the same way about me... i'm afraid that when you come back you won't want to stay in ******** anymore. You're guna have so much fun over there you'll want to move over there...what am i to do then? I have so many thoughts and ideas going through my mind every day and night....I've lost track of how many times I cry a day You're probably over the crying and missing phase now. You're probably adapting to everything well. I can't for 2 nights now I've had dreams and nightmares about you... one night i only got 3 hours of sleep cause i had a nightmare and couldnt go back to sleep. It felt so real... I had a nightmare that you're girl cousin told you to stop being with me and you listened to her. She was more important to you...you didn't want to even be with me anymore. I still hope you have a good time of course but I just wanted to let you know that I'm not even living anymore... These 2-3 days that past have gone by so slowly for me...every minute feels like an eternity... I'm always calculating what time it is over there and what you'd be doing...you're probably going out every day and getting back late at night.. I miss you so much every minute and every breathe i take hurts.. no one will ever understand what i'm going through. This is probably one of the hardest hurdles I've had to jump in my life...i didn't realize it would be like this. I will go buy a fone card 2mrow and call you when you're mom gets back from work. I hope you're doing okay, hope you're having fun. Take care of yourself well cause I'm not there to do anything for you... I know you probably won't read this email...but i want to send this email anyway. It's a way of me letting everything out... Okay I'm guna go shower now cause i'm crying and im a complete mess... I love you, miss you and im thinking of you every second that passes... Love, your girlfriend ******
Author SCG_Sasa1111 Posted August 13, 2011 Author Posted August 13, 2011 (edited) It's been approx. 9 months since it happened. I really didn't expect it. it hit me like a ton of bricks and had a huge impact on my life since than. most painful experience i have ever had to endure. I considered her my best friend and someone who I trusted with everything. I loved her truly and after reading this email can anyone seriously explain how someone can do what they did after saying what they said? As you can see imagine how it is for me after 4.5 years to come barging into her home and to see another guy there after she was lying to my face that I should come another time and its late:S..... I truly don't and won't understand some things.... She came to me twice since than crying saying she made a mistake and she shouldn't have done what she did. However she couldn't break up with him. 2 months ago ( her sister who I am still close 2- told me she called the cops on him to her place and stuff like that) so I really don't understand. Next thing you know there in the Dominican republic like??? Its truly sad and its hard for me to accept how someone can be that 2 faced...and not only that but everyone from HER friends. to her sister..to my friends are saying she made a huge mistake the guy is nothing close to what you are and here we are. She even told me if i NEVER left this wouldn't have happened......like? wtf? Edited August 13, 2011 by SCG_Sasa1111
dylan797 Posted August 13, 2011 Posted August 13, 2011 Sounds like some girls ive dated. Dont question why they do what they do. You'll never get the whole story frim her. Just run for the hills. Stay away from her. Some wimen are just no damn good.
wilsonx Posted August 13, 2011 Posted August 13, 2011 She even told me if i NEVER left this wouldn't have happened......like? wtf? She's emotionally immature. She blamed you for something she did. It's not your fault and you would be surprised how often this actually happens. There's nothing you can do about it now, it sucks trust me. Just let her go and move on with your life. If you haven't read, you should read, the "I'm no longer attracted to you" thread in my signature.
loverboy1984 Posted August 13, 2011 Posted August 13, 2011 The same thing happened to me. Reading your email was like the email Ive read from my ex a million times after she broke up with me. I cant make any sense to it. As mentioned above she is emotionally immature. She is insecure and trying to protect herself by pushing you away. She is not confident in you and thats not your fault. People like this mature later and realize what they have done but may be too arrogant and have to much pride to return. Its really frustrating and I truly feel for you. I wish I could tell you what to do but Im dealing with the same thing. Wish you all the best!
Author SCG_Sasa1111 Posted August 13, 2011 Author Posted August 13, 2011 ye i wish there was a quick fix to what i am feeling seriously 9 months later and im still feeling the pain everyday. i really don't know how to get myself out of this. i have been working out everyday for about 40 mins to an hour..i try to go more now. i feel like that makes me feel better but its only temporary. I try to go out as much as possible, movies, clubs, bars, etc. I also have hooked up with girls since than to try and see if it will make me feel better but in all honestly, it just feels empty and I realize I am not getting any satisfaction from it at all. I am in a huge rut, i truly don't know what to do to get myself out of this. Knowing shes with that guy still even after everything kills me inside and i wish i could move on but the rejection and blow to my ego kills me to this day. i am a shadow of my former self and it pisses me off that much that i am letting her get this much to me; it truly shows who cared for who more. I can't even hook up with a chick without feeling empty and shes already in a whole new relationship...i dont get how it doesn't eat up at her inside...
wilsonx Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 I am in a huge rut, i truly don't know what to do to get myself out of this. Knowing shes with that guy still even after everything kills me inside and i wish i could move on but the rejection and blow to my ego kills me to this day. i am a shadow of my former self and it pisses me off that much that i am letting her get this much to me; it truly shows who cared for who more. I can't even hook up with a chick without feeling empty and shes already in a whole new relationship...i dont get how it doesn't eat up at her inside... #1 Stop drinking #2 Let her go #3 In time it will eat her up and she will feel the pain but you will be long gone by then. #4 It doesn't matter anymore, you have got to start living today, not in the past and not in the future. #5 If you don't start living in today, you WILL miss out on great opportunities such as an awesome relationship that might have slipped by because you are still dwelling in the past.
horizzon Posted August 14, 2011 Posted August 14, 2011 Well you did break up with her.. So she has a right to be dating others doesn't she?
Author SCG_Sasa1111 Posted August 14, 2011 Author Posted August 14, 2011 the reason i broke up with her was because i was fed up with how she was acting, avoiding me and distancing herself the entire time, not acting like she did before. When we broke up we kept in contact, entire time. she kept telling me we will fix it and than one night when i went over to her place after soccer to talk to her about it. that guy was there and all hell broke loose, she eventually left me for him right after and it was done since than. I didn't do anything to end it, she did by leaving me for him.
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