Dblock10 Posted August 11, 2011 Posted August 11, 2011 (edited) Me and my ex broke up properly last sunday, in person and it was on good terms.... for now. This was because she has now graduated and is off to travel the delights of the world for half a year with a best friend. She said it wasn't practical to stay together now because she isn't sure of what she wants out of life in terms of work, she cant promise me anything and therefore cant expect me to wait around for her, or if we did stay together she may announce that she is off to do "xy and z" for another 6 months etc etc and it wouldn't be fair on me and she wouldn't want to feel guilty for doing that, thus doesn't want ties basically. Its hard for me, i have 2 years left of university, and I really did fall for this girl. i would do anything for her. but its over now, i have to accept it. Im not wanting to put my life on pause, but I feel i wont meet another girl like her for some time, longer than 6 months the time she will be gone for. so i guess deep down i would like to somehow re unite with her in the future although in reality i know this isn't that likely. She hasn't spoken to me since last sunday despite the fact she knew i was off to go visit my nan who is unfortunately very ill. i find this a bit of a kick when i'm down, because i would have thought she would have asked how everything was. all i know is life goes on, i just have to keep busy, do new things, meet new people. but you know what? ive gone off looking, chasing after girls. its sad and i'm not saying it out of anger or spite, or because i knew she is the pinnacle of my dating life, but i genuinely don't care now. I thought she was perfect and every time, it just teaches me that i get hurt once i let myself get attached. its always me hurting afterwards. for this reason, i cant see myself getting deep with any girl now until maybe my 30's. id love to put on my romantic goggles and "film" ending slide shows, where she comes back and a little down the line comes back to me etc. but this is life. its let me down before, it will do it again. all i can do now is say "screw it" to be honest. Edited August 11, 2011 by Dblock10
AcaciaStrain Posted August 11, 2011 Posted August 11, 2011 It gets better over time mate, sorry to hear about your nan aswell. Just remember as one door shuts another one opens. My best mate was in the same situation as you. His ex went to uni and dumped him before she left. He said the same as you've been saying. Fast forward 8 months he's with a girl who is 10 x more attractive and has got a heart of gold. He completely shut her out his life deleted her fb, photos, numbers, messages and got on with life.
Author Dblock10 Posted August 12, 2011 Author Posted August 12, 2011 hey mate. yeah ive been down this road before with girls. and lets just say, it had been a good 3 years before i came across this one. i obviously dated in between this time but found nothing worth keeping. then she came along and I just knew. she is very attractive, ok so there are some flaws but im just in love with her face and smile. i feel tossed a side and left behind whilst all she can do is say "sorry" in an empty sort of way. and ive got to just let her go... yeah its hard. im not feeling good. and ive not heard from her since last sunday. not anything. so that hurts, specially as she knew about my nan as i say. on one hand i can see how it would be good to delete her number, delete her from face book. but on the other hand, in the long run maybe not doing those things will be best. provided ive moved on. words alone cannot heal my heart right now. i wish she didnt leave me. i wish she had really wanted to stay with me.
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