ScienceGal Posted August 11, 2011 Posted August 11, 2011 I am hitting the 2 month mark. Still miss him, still upset, still crying pretty much daily. But I've made no attempt to contact him. Last message I sent was 4-5 weeks ago asking if I could send a mutual friend to get the rest of my things. I got no response, and I will not try again. The last message he sent was that he will speak to me when he is ready, which was probably 6 weeks ago. I have been advised by several of you to block him on Facebook. Well I haven't, but I have him and his friends taken off my news feed so I don't see whats going on in his life. I just RSVP'd to a local event that he will be at. I do not want to miss it (like I have been skipping other events in order to avoid seeing him). But given that I just started crying simply knowing I will have to face him (even if not directly) really scares me, my heart is racing. It also upsets me that I still care so much. I worry that even though the event is 5 weeks away, that I will be in the same place I have been the past 4 weeks. I've actually back slid for no apparent reason. I guess if I am a nervous wreck that I just won't go, but I hate that idea so much. So mad that I still love him. So mad that I still hope he will call. So so so mad at myself for holding on and letting him have this control over me.
HardknockLife Posted August 11, 2011 Posted August 11, 2011 I can feel your pain. There is nothing worse than holding onto that thought of him or her coming back. I think it's these thoughts that stops us from moving on. I also believe that you shouldnt wait for no one to come and talk to you when they are ready, they are putting you in a position where you wonder in your head..when, when, whennn...6 weeks is a long time..
Author ScienceGal Posted August 11, 2011 Author Posted August 11, 2011 It can't always rain. Holy Christ. Other than my ex, that is the only time I have EVER heard that expression. And I was just thinking about it today, and said it to someone. No joke. That just made my face go numb for a sec.
HardknockLife Posted August 11, 2011 Posted August 11, 2011 Maybe i am your ex....No just kidding i don't want to give you a heart attack.
Author ScienceGal Posted August 11, 2011 Author Posted August 11, 2011 I know you're not my ex, haha! But, that seriously was weird.
lovesickmonkey Posted August 11, 2011 Posted August 11, 2011 I wouldn't go to the event you're talking about. It can't be worth the stress and aggravation, can it? Plus, I know that, although I believe in NC, when I'm walking through town in places I know she might be, I'm looking out for her. It's no good but I'm doing it until I catch myself. Yep, I say cut yourself some slack and find something else to do.:bunny::bunny:
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