luvsickpuppy Posted August 9, 2011 Posted August 9, 2011 My 'friends' have been dropping like flies, even before he and I got to this point. Things were seeming to get better, then yesterday we got into a horrible fight, over something small. I mean so horrible he was throwing things that happened to me as a child, that weren't my fault at me, to hurt my mom. But it was just him and I on the phone so it didnt hurt her, just me. A few hours later he text me saying he was sorry, that we could talk again later, our conversation will be much nicer, and he loved me. I told him I would appreciate that, I was sorry and I love him. He got off around midnight, nothing. Today nothing. For the longest time its been me to make first contact. I feel like if he cares he will, I mean a relationship is work. Constant and continuous work. Right? So why am I always the first to come back? Any who I have no friends, I've built my life around a failing relationship, my mother has been treating me like ****, I hate being at my apartment and feeling alone. I need someone new to talk to. So I don't keep coming back, bearing my weakness, to someone who at every bump is ready to throw me into exile. I love him with every beat of my now pathetic heart. With everything that has happened I still just want to be in his arms. So it is obvious to me, he can't possibly love me like I love him. I need someone new to talk to, so I can stop turning to tell him everything about my day. So I can back off and give my heart the time it needs to heal.
Mnesic Posted August 9, 2011 Posted August 9, 2011 I know how you feel I was the same way and still am, give this chat room a try , it helped me get over my ex quickly. http://tinychat.com/myrelationship
Author luvsickpuppy Posted August 9, 2011 Author Posted August 9, 2011 Im beginning to pace, he just text, saying he was sorry for yesterday, he was busy and after work was really tired. I replied its okay I understand. I want more from him but I need to stand strong.
richhurts Posted August 9, 2011 Posted August 9, 2011 I know how you feel, it sucks, I too am in a place where I don't have many friends and when it all comes down to it I just need someone to talk to
trevorboobah Posted August 10, 2011 Posted August 10, 2011 e-mail me if you need to talk. it seems as if we're pretty similar so, if you'd like someone to talk to, e-mail me. i'd me more than happy to have someone to talk to as well. keep your head up, im in the same boat sweetheart. [email protected]
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