antinko Posted August 7, 2011 Posted August 7, 2011 I haven't been drunk in months, but went out last night and had a few too many. It was a friend's birthday and we got carried away. Anyway, I remember getting home, coming online and then waking up this morning in bed. A friend tells me I'd said I missed my ex and wanted to contact her...but they don't know if I did or not. Now, the dilemma is, I know I wanted to and when I checked Facebook messages, the last message shared between us was from weeks ago; however, the paranoid part of my mind is wondering if I sent a message...then deleted it. I just don't know. I so hope I didn't send it because a. I have no idea what I wrote if I did - it would have been incoherent and useless, and b. I was doing a good job at no contact. I know what you're going to say - block her on FB, which I have now done, but what should I do? Should I just assume all is fine and maintain NC or should I send her a rational message? I don't want to get back with her and she has plenty of faults - she really hurt me and has been really selfish, but I'm mortified by the idea that I might have let myself down with a drunk message. I'm extra annoyed because I've not lost control like that before and been in a situation where I can't remember what I did the previous night... This is a nightmare. I just want to be over her.
Arikel Posted August 7, 2011 Posted August 7, 2011 Sent it then deleted it? Somehow I doubt that Im pretty sure you didn't do that. Anyway , so what if you did. If she replies, just apologize and say you were drunk and start NC again. If she doesn't, you didn't send anything
Author antinko Posted August 7, 2011 Author Posted August 7, 2011 Sent it then deleted it? Somehow I doubt that Im pretty sure you didn't do that. Anyway , so what if you did. If she replies, just apologize and say you were drunk and start NC again. If she doesn't, you didn't send anything This makes sense. I am just worried what I would have sent her, though. I do miss her, but I also feel really angry towards her in many ways so if I did send a drunk message...it could have been anything. I think I'm more annoyed about the fact I let myself get into a state where I lost control, though, message or no message. I hate being unable to remember things.
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