Layzie89 Posted August 6, 2011 Posted August 6, 2011 Got home from a club around 2:30 AM...a little drunk. Started thinking about her, missing her. Texted her "I love you." at 2:47 AM...definition of a drunk text but I can't deny it, I do still love her. So yeah, I slipped. Oh well. I'm so glad that's all I said. The way I see it, I could have said a lot more and that would have been real bad. Thank god. NC for over 6 months, first time she reached out was about 2 weeks ago telling me how she's sorry she ****ed me over, she found who she is/who she wants to be and hates the things she did to me. I replied "No worries, glad you're doing well." In all honesty, it kind of feels good just finally telling her that I love her, despite everything she's put me through. She knows I'm not grudging over anything at least. ON the same token however, I feel like I just gave her back the power. Whatever, not expecting anything back from her. Just gonna continue on with NC. Just felt the need to write about it.
Nohbody Posted August 6, 2011 Posted August 6, 2011 Could have been worse! Good to see you're not beating yourself up about it... who knows, perhaps the truth shall set you free? (Is that even appropriate in this context? Whatever.)
Author Layzie89 Posted August 6, 2011 Author Posted August 6, 2011 Haha, appropriate I'd say. Like I said, it feels good to finally let her know that I still love her regardless of the **** she's put me through. I've been wanting to tell her for a while now, kinda glad I did. Not gonna beat myself up for it at all, I learned a lot from this breakup. One of the most important things being that you have to think positive as much as you can. Sure I can sit around and beat myself up for breaking NC but what good is that gonna do? Rather just be positive and realize it could have been a lot worse and telling her I love her actually made me feel better. and so, life goes on.
mr.goodguy Posted August 7, 2011 Posted August 7, 2011 The key thing you stated...."it feels good to finally let her know that I still love her regardless of the **** she's put me through". This could apart of your healing (glad you are in a positive state of mind after this)...or it could backfire. The power has definitely swung to her. NC is you only move now...if she does not respond do you think that it will damage you? Hopefully not. Was this the first time you have told her 'I love you?'
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