BROKE NC after only a few days =/

[ConfusedT]

I broke NC again today. Got into a heated argument with myself essentially since he only responded two times.

 

I sat there again and was so embarrassed by my actions.

Again!!!!!!!!!

 

(after I have begged and pleaded this past week and a half)

 

At the end of MY convo, Instead of pouring out my feelings to him, I texted him that i agreed with the breakup (CANT believe I'd say that), that i apologized for acting out but was going through a lot of difficult things these last few weeks and that im happy he left, so i didnt have to.

 

Whew, thought i'd never tell him something like that.

 

feels like i got a little power back, still frustrated that i broke NC though.

 

i felt so strong yesterday.

[Art_Critic]

feels like i got a little power back, still frustrated that i broke NC though.

 

i felt so strong yesterday.

 

No biggie.. just start over..

 

Remember though.. it isn't NC unless you stop contacting them.. otherwise you aren't breaking NC.. you are just plain contacting them..

 

NC means No Contact not contact them every few days..

 

Okay.. now that that is off my chest.. use what you learned to help you do NC and start over....

[ConfusedT]

I felt I was GOOD yesterday, but some drama resurfaced and I had no handle on my self-control. =/

 

Problem is i was going thru SO much other emotional things at the time of our breakup(serious things) that i tried to put every emotion on him bc i thought he'd be there, instead he was already exiting...

 

i really do hope i can be stronger than this. im going through a rollercoaster!

[Art_Critic]

i really do hope i can be stronger than this. im going through a rollercoaster!

 

You have the power.. it isn't easy but you can do it... breakups suck..

Sorry you are going thru one..

 

Just keep your healing and moving on in the forefront and keep yourself busy when you get the overwhelming feelings to contact