alphadog Posted August 3, 2011 Posted August 3, 2011 Here is my previous post http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t288416/ Fast forwarding in time, A lot has happened in the past few weeks. There was a trip that we planned to go to, but since we broke up i decided not to go anymore. My friends however decided for me to go & said that i shouldn't let her ruin my fun so i finally got gave in & decided to go the day before the event. I gave her little attention only saying hi when i saw her first & mostly ignored her for the rest of the night. Later that night i got drunk & i called her, she came up to me obviously pissed & i asked her some stupid questions which finally ended in me asking her to be with me again. She refused me & went back to drinking. Later that night her bestfriend ended up in some random guys bedroom & she was left alone. She then asked me to sleep with her & I agreed. I then spent the night with her & we had sex. The next day i gave her little attention again & she told me she was happy i didn't leave her when we woke up because i stayed by her side the whole time. She then told me that she loves me more than she ever did now. Which got me confused because she wanted to be friends. Fastforwarding a week to my birthday, we spent the night together stargazing and talking about us. I brought her our cow stuffed animal, which I named, we pretended it to be our child. I also wrote her a poem. I told her its to celebrate our 3 months. We ended the night with us having the most passionate sex of our lives. Everything was so different & we didn't want to let each other go. It was simply amazing & we promised to each other that we'll be together & this moment is only something we'll share with each other. She said yes, but she then proceeded to tell me that I had to "share" her with her bisexual girl bestfriend & some other family members (fyi my ex is also bi). I didn't really think much of it. But two days ago, she mentioned that they were having a date with her bisexual "bestfriend" & asked for my permission. I was confused because we weren't in a relationship so why would she ask me that. I playfully asked if they were gonna have sex too & she avoided it. Then i knew something was up. On top of it all, she comments on my facebook "Hope you have a great day today Chupp <3(our pet names)". & she has been saying she loves me more & more now. She's even playfully asking me to just marry her & to love her forever. I was so confused. I don't know what to think of it anymore. So i texted her today saying calling her by her first name. I said I don't think we can make it work being friends, because of how i felt for her still. & that we can't be friends because we always act as if we are in a relationship with the pet names & us showing our feelings, that we should just move on from each other. & i wished her the best. She replied but it doesn't seem like she was shocked & just said. "I respect your decision, i'm sorry that i'm not ready for you. I don't necessarily agree with your decision. I assume that our promises are now void because you walked. I don't know how things will be. But i wish the best" It seemed like she took it lightly but i saw on her facebook as her last status. "MIA for a while. I need it" & i guess it affected her more than she make it appear. I think that going NC with her is the best solution, so that she can finally make up her mind. However I do still care for her so much & i don't know how to respond to her last text or if i should even respond. I might be crazy but i love this girl with all my heart. I don't know what else to do.
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