Ex gf is FWB but now wants more? i think.

[jtdiesel]

This is a multi layer problem. My ex and I have been on and off for over 4 years. Sometimes off up to 8 months. Well we broke up october last year cause she admitted making out with her neighbor. It would've been a minor deal but I put a lot of trust in her knowing the neighbor had made moves before. A little background on our relationship. She and I had started out LDR than moved in together after she graduated college. She has strong catholic values and was expecting proposal while living together. I am a realist. I wanted to see how living together worked out but she kept waiting for a proposal and after our lease was up we split. 6 months later she finds a full time job in my town so we talked a little and started dating again. That's until the neighbor deal happened. Now she lives in the next county with a new job. She kept trying to contact me for 6 months but I kept to single sentence texts cause I as still pissed at her and trying to move on. Finally one night we talk on the phone and she basically had to spell it out that she was trying to contact me so we could get it on. I thought awesome and laid down ground rules for the FWB relationship but in the back of my mind I wondered if shed wasn't planning something else. So last weekend were hanging out and she gets kinda sad and tells me it bothers her the only reason I come up to see her is for sex. I told her I thought that's what we had agreed on but then the old emotions came back and basically admitted we still had the same feelings for each other. Now this is where im having a problem. I had a huge crush on a girl in high school but never really talked to her. I've been interested in trying to run into her so I could just tell her how I felt just to get it off for my chest cause it has been bothering me for a long time. Well we both attend the same event every year and I thought this year I can finally make my move and my mind will be at ease no matter what she said... win lose or draw. Just my luck she wasn't there. So I asked some mutual aquaintences where she was and we got to talking and they were gonna hook me up. But we were all drunk and I think that went by the wayside. So now im left with facebook as a last resort. I hate to do it that way but I feel like I have no other options. I just want to know what she would say. I guess im looking for advice on whether to make amends and try again with my ex or roll the dice with my crush from high school. Either way I want to know what my crush would say so I can be done with it. I haven't talked to my ex in a week cause she sent me a text saying she loves me and I didn't respond the same.