He waited too long.

[Dasaso]

Hello everyone! I'm new at this blog so I really hope for you guys to help me.

I'm from central america, Im not very fluent on English but ill try to explain you my history. It may sound stupid for many of you, but I really need to know what to or not to do!.

I was a 20 years old girl who started a relationship with my best friend,classmate, almost neighbor, who wasn't my type but we had such a connection and chemistry. He was my best friend for a year, he had a g/f at that time but i was feeling like we had a really special bond. So he broke u with her because she was crazy and had lots of problems!. A month after his break up we started to flirt and we fell in love. he wanted me to be his girlfriend but i felt like it was too soon, so we waited 4 months to begin formally our relationship . My first one, by the way and fourth for him.

Our firsts months were awesome. We hanged out a lot, laugh about everything, telling each other how much love we felt. He told me he never felt that in love with someone before.

We had our first fights, we hurt each other. He left me handle the relationship so he wouldn't lose me. My mind started to feel confused. I didn't feel so attracted to him physically but i loved him for being who he is. I started to think if there's someone better for me, etc. Stupid and immature thoughts, but typical in a first relationship. We used to say everything in our minds, so i told him i was confused. I treated him really bad, sometimes i got angry at him and act indifferent. But all that time he acted with respect, always telling me he loved me. He loved me so much he couldn't hide his feelings and wasn't proud at me at all. He always was there by me side even if I was a bitch. Maybe i was expecting him to show some strong personality.

After few months later I decided to take some time to think about where we were going. He cried. but i acted like i didn't care because i didn't. He asked me one day after to get back together and i told him that time was for me to decide not his. We never stop seeing each other, we seated together at class, never stopped doing our assignments together, etc. He tol me he still love me. We never dated another person. Two months later i never made up my mind so i told him I didn't want to get back together. But he still tried to get me back. We were playing and acting like we were together but i didnt wanted commitment because he was so sensible and powerless with me and didn't feel that in love with him like before. I thought i was going to have him always by my side. So selfish.

 

A month ago he made an academy trip to Europe. I missed him so much. I started to think to get back with him and trying finally to make up my mind. I tried so hard to get in touch with him but he was so busy visiting places and having class. I started to feel like a distance with him. Saw pictures in Facebook with mutual friends and a girl who apparently became really good friend with him. Two days before he came back he told me he didn't wanted to get back together and we should be just friends. I was Ok. Kinda sad but i didnt believe him that much.

He came to my house the next day after his arrive. He was really nervous and I felt like he was still into me. He brought me some gifts. The next day i found out he was in a movie with his new friend.(the girl from the pictures). So i asked him if he liked her. He told me he didn't know but he thought that maybe. I Cried all that night, i didn't sleep. The next day I ask for his forgiveness and if he wanted to get back together. He told me he was tired of me, HE WAITED TO0 LONG FOR ME, he still care but he was to hurt and now he's trying to move on. We have all our classes together because we both are in the same degree at college. I miss him so much. Even though we broke up we still kissed and spend looot of time together. I just don't get how after a week (because he still said he miss me in Europe) he changed his mind. I'm so sad. I was so used to his companion and be treated so nice and being so loved by him. He had so many virtues, moral values, tons of plans for the future, his own house, his father company that he is going to inherit, he is christian as I am, etc. My family love him because he is a MAN. and I am a child.

I don't know what to do. I still talk to him at college, but just random stuff, so do he. but knowing that someone doesn't love you as before its really killing me. I've talk to my parents and everyone I know. I know i screwed it and i deserve it. He says he's great now. I know he talks a lot with his new girl friend but he tries to hide it from me. I really believe that he was for me but it wasn't the right time, he wanted to go too fast and i wanted things my way. People say If hes for me he will come back, if he isnt, then there will be someone better. But i do think that I lost the opportunity God gave me. Because he was perfect. maybe i have lost the man of my life. I know Im just 21 but im not a girl who knows lots of man. and I really want things formal. Not fooling around even thou that's what i Did.

I missed him so much. We had such a special friendship. We shared everything. Thanks God we didn't make love because I want to be virgin until marriage. I never know someone like him. I attract lots of men but I dont like them. I guess im going to be single for a few years.

[Shaun-Dro]

Hello everyone! I'm new at this blog so I really hope for you guys to help me.

I'm from central america, Im not very fluent on English but ill try to explain you my history. It may sound stupid for many of you, but I really need to know what to or not to do!.

I was a 20 years old girl who started a relationship with my best friend,classmate, almost neighbor, who wasn't my type but we had such a connection and chemistry. He was my best friend for a year, he had a g/f at that time but i was feeling like we had a really special bond. So he broke u with her because she was crazy and had lots of problems!. A month after his break up we started to flirt and we fell in love. he wanted me to be his girlfriend but i felt like it was too soon, so we waited 4 months to begin formally our relationship . My first one, by the way and fourth for him.

Our firsts months were awesome. We hanged out a lot, laugh about everything, telling each other how much love we felt. He told me he never felt that in love with someone before.

We had our first fights, we hurt each other. He left me handle the relationship so he wouldn't lose me. My mind started to feel confused. I didn't feel so attracted to him physically but i loved him for being who he is. I started to think if there's someone better for me, etc. Stupid and immature thoughts, but typical in a first relationship. We used to say everything in our minds, so i told him i was confused. I treated him really bad, sometimes i got angry at him and act indifferent. But all that time he acted with respect, always telling me he loved me. He loved me so much he couldn't hide his feelings and wasn't proud at me at all. He always was there by me side even if I was a bitch. Maybe i was expecting him to show some strong personality.

After few months later I decided to take some time to think about where we were going. He cried. but i acted like i didn't care because i didn't. He asked me one day after to get back together and i told him that time was for me to decide not his. We never stop seeing each other, we seated together at class, never stopped doing our assignments together, etc. He tol me he still love me. We never dated another person. Two months later i never made up my mind so i told him I didn't want to get back together. But he still tried to get me back. We were playing and acting like we were together but i didnt wanted commitment because he was so sensible and powerless with me and didn't feel that in love with him like before. I thought i was going to have him always by my side. So selfish.

 

A month ago he made an academy trip to Europe. I missed him so much. I started to think to get back with him and trying finally to make up my mind. I tried so hard to get in touch with him but he was so busy visiting places and having class. I started to feel like a distance with him. Saw pictures in Facebook with mutual friends and a girl who apparently became really good friend with him. Two days before he came back he told me he didn't wanted to get back together and we should be just friends. I was Ok. Kinda sad but i didnt believe him that much.

He came to my house the next day after his arrive. He was really nervous and I felt like he was still into me. He brought me some gifts. The next day i found out he was in a movie with his new friend.(the girl from the pictures). So i asked him if he liked her. He told me he didn't know but he thought that maybe. I Cried all that night, i didn't sleep. The next day I ask for his forgiveness and if he wanted to get back together. He told me he was tired of me, HE WAITED TO0 LONG FOR ME, he still care but he was to hurt and now he's trying to move on. We have all our classes together because we both are in the same degree at college. I miss him so much. Even though we broke up we still kissed and spend looot of time together. I just don't get how after a week (because he still said he miss me in Europe) he changed his mind. I'm so sad. I was so used to his companion and be treated so nice and being so loved by him. He had so many virtues, moral values, tons of plans for the future, his own house, his father company that he is going to inherit, he is christian as I am, etc. My family love him because he is a MAN. and I am a child.

I don't know what to do. I still talk to him at college, but just random stuff, so do he. but knowing that someone doesn't love you as before its really killing me. I've talk to my parents and everyone I know. I know i screwed it and i deserve it. He says he's great now. I know he talks a lot with his new girl friend but he tries to hide it from me. I really believe that he was for me but it wasn't the right time, he wanted to go too fast and i wanted things my way. People say If hes for me he will come back, if he isnt, then there will be someone better. But i do think that I lost the opportunity God gave me. Because he was perfect. maybe i have lost the man of my life. I know Im just 21 but im not a girl who knows lots of man. and I really want things formal. Not fooling around even thou that's what i Did.

I missed him so much. We had such a special friendship. We shared everything. Thanks God we didn't make love because I want to be virgin until marriage. I never know someone like him. I attract lots of men but I dont like them. I guess im going to be single for a few years.

 

Yes, stay single until you know what you really want.

[Dasaso]

that's what im doing, Im not complaining or anything like that to him. I am letting things happen. And thats what he didnt do when i first broke up with him. He was pushing me too much to get back together.. but i missed such a great man.