micot Posted July 30, 2011 Posted July 30, 2011 kind of starting to see things here .my ex and i had a good relationship for 6 yrs ,she was recently divorced when i met her at work .we hit it off right away ,after a-while being together steadily she'd make comments like 'wow this is soo good ,why couldn't my marrage have been like this' ,'this seems soo real','i love you', has told my friends ''mike is really good to me i could never hurt nor ever want to hurt him this one will last' etc ... we live in pretty small towns right next to each other about 20-30 min away from each other.theirs only one major area everyone goes to shop , or go clubbing,etc .since we split [ well she dumped me ] for no reason [except whatever was in her head] and has givin me the ' it's not you ,it's me' ,'i love you but not in love with you anymore' replies . i've seen her around with some guy , so figured that's the reason for the split , maybe even g.i.g.s. whatever . at first we had some phone convos but usually pretty short [ i think the more she talked and gave me lame excuses ] the more she seen how she hurt me for no reason and how she knows how un-fair,disrespectful she's been towards me ,when i've been nothing but nice to her even after she walked out . she's tried to get into confrontations with me but i never would go their with her .saying mean-hurtful things to me maybe even hopping i'd return with mean -hurtful comments to her to justify her behaviour towards me and to justify the split . she's told me she likes doing what she's been doing latly [hangin out with her girl-ffriends] she seen them while we were together just now she sees them way more . latly everytime i see her around she's with a girl-friend or 2 ,if i aproach and say hi it's like i'm not even their ,even her friends which i know just look right through me like i'm a ghost . talking with my sis she says since my ex is so close with her girl-friends [she considers them sisters] and their single and nfluance her and she's pretty much the fun attractive one of the group they've convinced her to leave me and hang with them .it does kind of make sense to me in a weird way ,my ex has been verry distant towards me near the end of the relationship ,blowing me off to be with the friends,would make definate plans with the girls and only tenative plans with me .latly her one friend who i've always gotten along with has been nothing but nasty to me when i see her alone or with my ex and my ex will just let her friend say stupid things to me if i wave or go up and say hi -my ex isn't mean spirited or a person that would go out and be mean or hurtful to someone even if they deserve it she'd turn the other cheek BUT latly with me she's the oposite not carring what she says , or what i see [ like her with someone else ] BUT i do see when she looks at me she is definatly holding back something .the other day we were talking at my place when she stopped by to get things and a couple of times after i've said nice things to her she took a step or 2 towards me like she so wanted to just hug or kiss me BUT caught herself and pulled back ,j,ust seems she's totally confused -even admitted to me no one could take either of our places because our chemistry together was so strong and real . now we're in total no contact ,with the frustration i've felt over this situation the love between us was soo close to turning to hate and me wanting revenge against her BUT i just can't bring myself to hate or do some revengeful stuff to her . I have a strong feeling in the future at some point she will contact me and we'll talk openly and civaly ,reconsiliation i doubt .she has said she considers me a 'friend' and could never hate me ,or have ill feelings towards me ,i don't towards her BUT i do for the situation and how everything went down .i swear her splitting with me was pre-planned [others think so also ] who walks around ith a box of jewelery in the purse that their guy has givin them over the years only to leave it on a shelf to be found by the guy [ ME] after they've left their place .
YuGr. Posted August 4, 2011 Posted August 4, 2011 I'd love to help you out, but I can't understand anything you wrote.. Try making it cleaner with actual sentences cause nobody wants to read that..
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